I honestly cannot take it anymore!! When I joined this fanclub a couple of months ago, everybody seemed really cool, and it made me really wanna be here. Everybody was focused on doing some Charity work, doing something nice for the community, helping each other, building each other's spirits, being there for one another! I wanted to be apart of it! But now, there's NOTHING here but DRAMA!!! I feel like everybody's too wrapped up on trying to be a better Angel than the next Angel! Trying to be more popular, trying to feel like u're better than everybody else. NO!! THAT'S NOT HOW THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE!!
Had it been up to me, I probably would have never joined something like this in the first place. But when I really fucks wit u, (celebrity wise) then i fucks wit u, HARD. Anybody that knows me knows this. I was the same way with Chris Brown for five years, and now I'm the same way with Trey. I go hard for both of em. The only difference is, Chris didn't have a fan club family that he wanted all his real fans to be apart of. Trey did. So out of love for him, I became apart of it. And out of love for him, i'm trying to STAY apart of it. BUT YA'LL ARE MAKING IT HARD! There is NO REAL LOVE HERE! If there is, I sure don't feel any of it!
I don't like drama. I try to shy away from it, unless I really have no choice, and even then, I don't stay in it too long. I put my two cents in, and i'm out. Squashed. I don't wanna step out of the real world where it's full of bs and step into a virtual reality world, where's there's even MORE bs, than normal! I wanna come here, and forget about all my problems, and rep Trey with a family that loves him just as much as i do (probably even more). But how can I do that when everyone's fighting???
I don't know weather this is a sorority, a family, a fanclub, probably all of the above, because sometimes, that's what it feels like. But i do know that something needs to change. We have something very unique that no other fanclub has, and we're messing it up. Yeah there are posts going around about the negativity being gone, and shout-outs to the Angels that are starting them, and agreeing with what's being written and said. But what good does it do to talk about it, but still see no action being done to change anything? Instead of things getting better around here, things are getting worse! It's really making me not wanna be here anymore.
I don't know if I can honestly ever fully leave, because everytime I think i want to, Trey does something to sucker me back into being here. Like the fanclub cards he sent out for Christmas. Which I think was nice of him, it was like he gave US something for Christmas. No other celebrity does stuff like that for us either! What other celebrity do you know that looks out for their fans as much as he does (without us putting money in their pockets first_) when u think of someone, let me know. He goes hard for his Angels, and I'm tryna go hard for him. But I just don't know how much longer I'm gonna be able to do it.
I think we ALL need to get back to the reason of why we're here in the first place. We need rules here, we need guidelines that EVERYBODY is gonna have to abide by, and EVERYBODY needs to talk. EVERYBODY! If we're gonna be a family, sorority, etc...then we need to act like it, and do things the way they should be done. We need to do it the right way. If we're gonna call ourselves something, then we need live up to what we're claimng ourselves to be.
And yeah I used a Nickelodian song. Sue me. That's my shit. lls.