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    December 27, 2010

    More of Trey and Essence, hope you like it!

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on Dec 27, 2010 - 03:07AM

More of Trey and Essence, hope you like it!

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taylovestremaine.'s picture

ooooooooooo...... im scared i think essence is going to break up w/him i hope not *fingers crossed*

Raven RambunctiousAngel's picture

This Is So Good!! I feel like she is going to break up with him!! Noooooooo!!! Don't let that happen!! They are just right for each other! "Made To Be Together" #ImJustSaying I can't wait to see whats going to happen!!

Daniel_Shawn's picture

omg i'm in class readin this and tearin up plz dont let them break up :(

stlgirl4lyfe2010's picture

No I don't wanna see them break up but I understand

Ty Ranae's picture

this gives me lifee :) i love this story

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Entry 18 cont'd
I felt the tears forming in my eyes and I had to put the phone down for a few seconds. When I picked it up again, he was saying that he wishes he could be there for me the way I'm there for him.
"I know I haven't been doing the things I know I need to be doing for you. I haven't been able to give you all the attention you deserve. But I'm trying, baby."
"I know you are...Gosh, I feel so damn selfish telling you all of this. You don't need anymore pressure on you. Like I said, I don't want to be a bother to you." I had a lump in my throat.
"Nah, don't apologize. It's my fault. You doing what you need to do. I understand. I just wanna know if we can figure out a way to get through this...I know that at times love just isn't enough, but if that's the most I can give you right now, can you hold on a little longer? You know you got my heart, right?"
Trey's voice in my ear sounded so sweet and sincere. I couldn't answer him right away because I was trying not to let him hear me cry. I need him, but I also need to be alright as my own person. I can't be walking around with this pit in my stomach, wondering which surprise is going to pop up every few months. I'm not blaming Trey, but I can't help but think that I wouldn't have these issues in my life if he wasn't my man.
My mother is a Park Avenue socialite and my dad is a business mogul. Both know a lot of influential people and are considered by their peers to be as significant.
CoCo and I were raised to be strong, independent in thought, as well as in monetary means. At CoCo's and my cotillions Daddy made sure to tell us that we weren't being presented to society only as eligible young women. We were to keep in mind that no man was ever going to be eligible enough for us.
I've lived with that creed for years. When CoCo found her Mr Right, a neurosurgeon who had graduated top in his class and whose parents gained wealth through their line of popular kids products, I thought that she'd played it safe.

Shambrika_1030@yahoo.com's picture

awww y she gon break my baby heart??

ECJ's picture

ooOOO Wow! He steals my heart!

stlgirl4lyfe2010's picture

I know Shay I would not want to break of with him either after that statement

Ty Ranae's picture

I would be so sad...I love it keep it going

Shay - Epiphany Angel's picture

Awwwwww! It would've been hard to break up after what Trey said! *sigh*

chanelchante's picture

I also hope your family situation worked out, sweety

chanelchante's picture

wow...that was great. first time i visited this discussion/forum. i will check back for future reads...cool

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Entry 18
Trey told me that he called to see how I was feeling. He wanted to know if I was still mad at him.
I told him that I wasn't really mad at him. I was just not feeling right because I can tell that things are changing between us.
I locked myself in Unique's bedroom while I spoke to Trey. I didn't want any interruptions. Trey must have felt the same way because I heard him tell his assistant that no one was to be let into the room he was in. He was at a hotel and he had just finished doing an interview for an internet site.
He told me a little bit about how his day and the interview had gone. He made me laugh a little bit, and I felt a little sad because of what I had to say. Finally, I just took the plunge.
"Baby, I think we should take a break for a little while."
"What?" As soon as I heard him ask, I wanted to take back what I'd said, but I knew that I couldn't.
"We need a break." I said.
"What kind of break?" He sounded suspicious.
"You know..." I was losing my nerve.
"You wanna break up?" He asked me. I told him yes, then I quickly said no.
"Make up your mind." He said. His voice was gentle but I could tell he was only trying to stay calm.
"Baby I think we need to break up. I don't want to, but I don't want things to get any worse between us."
He wanted to know just how bad I thought things were. So, I told him all of my feelings. I know that some of what I was telling him was repetitious, but he let me say what I had to say. I ended my speech by telling him that I still love him, but I didn't want to be a bother to him or be treated as such.
"First off, you not a bother to me. If you feel that way then maybe it's because I've been working harder than ever lately. But you're not the problem. In fact, you help with the problems. You don't know how good I feel when I come home to my bed being made, and the sheets are clean, the dishes are done, my fridge is stocked. You know, you take good care of me. And I wanna say thank you, baby, for all you do."

Daniel_Shawn's picture

Damn essence u can't keep us hangin like tht lol more plz!!!!!

Joie_Neverson's picture

*gasps*

BrokenHaloAngel's picture

Next part!!! Gotta hear (read) this conversation... It's gonna be good!

JamRoC_4eVa's picture

I'M finally caught up,OMG girl i know how u feeling with all that mix emotion, yes girl u need 2 flip the script & c how trey like it..But u gotta do wats best 4 u, i juss hope trey fight 4 u.. LUV IT, NXT POST PLZZZ

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Entry 17 cont'd
As I'm sitting here writing, more thoughts keep coming to me. What if the time has come for Trey and I to take a little break from each other? I mean it would make sense, in a way. I would love to just blame Jasmine for all of this - she's the perfect scapegoat, but deep down inside, I know that that's not all there is to this. Trey's and my reactions to Jasmine and her plight are only symptoms of a problem that we have between us.
I've been insecure in this relationship from the start. I hate to admit, but it's true. I've taken a backseat to Trey's career only because I know that it's been his dream for so long. I know that with or without me in his life, Trey will succeed, because he doesn't let anyone else stop him from doing what he wants to do.
I was so focussed on being their for him that I just accepted what came along with his celebrity status, for examlpe, the other women who want him, the crazy work schedule that barely leaves us time to have dinner together anymore, the crazy fans that love him but hate me, the stalkers who stalk him, and who are now stalking me...
I don't know. I don't really want to lose him. A big part of me wants to call him right now and tell him that I need a break from all of this. I'm thinking of giving him the, "It's not you, it's me" speech, but if I do that, it may make him feel as if I'm giving up on him. In fact, isn't that just what I'd be doing? Won't I be giving up on us?
My phone is ringing and well, well, well - it's Trey. This has to be a sign. I have to tell him how I'm feeling about us. I don't know how he's going to feel about what I have to say. All I know is I have to say it. I'm nervous, but what the hell. Here goes nothing.

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Entry 17 cont'd
I cleared my throat and I went back to my seat. I pushed Unique in his direction.
"He's all yours, tiger." I told her. Unique sat on his lap. She eased her way into a comfortable spot. Charles got a glossy look in his eye as he placed his hands on her waist.
"Tell me again. How beautiful is Essence?" Unique asked him.
"She's, I mean you both are very beautiful. I mean, I was just saying that she shouldn't have a problem turning the tables on him." He leaned down until his lips were inches from her neck.
Unique gave me a look that said she'd just caught another victim to add to her collection. I made a mental note to tell her to go easy on him. After all, I am trusting him to guard my life.
For the moment, the conversation was dropped. Unique asked him where he kept his gun. He told her that it was in it's holster on his waist. She told him that she thought she was sitting on it. That was all I needed to hear. I left them alone and went upstairs to Unique's bedroom. I flopped onto her bed and thought about the conversation we'd had.
Their input was good, but, I still can't shake the feeling I've had since the other night when Trey and I talked about the whole thing. Here I am, willing to give my all to this man. Ready to live the rest of my life by his side as his partner. I show him everyday how much he means to me. I go crazy at the thought of him being with someone else. I show him that I love him, I tell him that I love him. I don't know what else to do. I don't know how much more I can do. Mentally, this whole thing is just exhausting me.
But wait, what if I'm doing too much? What if I'm giving my all, and Trey's only giving me eighty per cent? What if he's only giving me sixty per cent? I mean, he has been really busy with his album and all of the other obligations he has. What if he feels that I'm just getting in his way? Ever since Jasmine came back into his life, I have felt a distance between us, but what if that's only part of the issue?

Da Shy Scorpio's picture

mmmm mmmm mmmm. now y is jasmine startin ish with essence??? trey obviously didn't tell her b/c he wasn't ready 2 yet but this chick just had 2 go say sumthin. smh. i can't wait 2 c what happens next. and i wonder if it was jasmine that sent that pic of trey

Daniel_Shawn's picture

i feel like something bout to go down...

SexySagLuvSongz's picture

Mmmmmm.....I smell a thunderstorm brewin!!

Shambrika_1030@yahoo.com's picture

i had to catch up dis is gettin good... next entry plz!!!

Ty Ranae's picture

i can feel somethings about to happen

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Entry 17 cont'd
Charles gave another point to look at.
"He's a man. He has two women vying for something from him, and that's gotta be what's on his mind the most. What ever happened between him and his ex, is definitely in the past, but she's using it as a reason to be in his face now. He likes it. On the other hand, he has you. He's not going to let what he let go of affect what he has now. He just wants to see how it's going to play out."
"Well I don't want to get hurt while he's playing mind games. I just want this relationship to be drama free." I said.
"Stop that trick in her tracks. At the end of the day, she's probably jealous because you have him. You said he never even mentioned her before the day you met her?" Unique asked.
I shook my head. "Not a word. He didn't mention the baby either."
"Well, for all you know, the baby could've been the strongest thing between them."
I told her that they had been friends all their lives. She told me that being friends and lovers didn't always mix.
"He moved on in his life. He became successful, and he's not all screwed up. She probably just wants what she could have had. Don't let her think she has a chance."
That is the last thing I want her to think. Now all I have to do is convince myself that she doesn't have a chance.
Charles said that he didn't know what the big deal about Trey was. He held up his hands as I moved towards him. I told him that no matter what, my baby is the best. I playfully swiped at him as he laughed.
"Nah, wait a second. Let me explain." He said as he ducked and pretended to be afraid of me.
Unique and I laughed, but I let him continue.
"Not for nothing, but he's just a man with a high profile job. So, he's a celebrity, which means women are going to be throwing their panties at him. No disrepect, you're a beautiful woman. I know you must have other men waiting in line to get with you."
Unique wanted to know if he was one of them. He tried not to blush as he stated that I'm just his boss.

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Entry 17 cont'd
I told them about my problem with Trey and Jasmine while we ate lunch. I was really feeling down and I needed to hear some feedback. I was glad that Charles had stayed because he gave a male perspective on the situation.
"He probably didn't tell you because he didn't want you to see such a deep emotional side to him, you know, one that shows his vulnerability." He said.
"I don't see why he felt that way. I would've been there for him." I said.
Charles asked me if I had ever been pregnant before. I told him no and breathed a sigh of relief. As I did so, something dawned on me.
"You think the reason he didn't tell me was because he didn't think that I could sympathize with him?"
"How would you be able to? The two of you haven't reached that point in your relationship yet. Besides that, from what you said, it happened a while back, and he has already put the whole thing behind him. He probably only wants to dwell in the present with you, while you two decide what your future is going to be like."
"And he probably didn't want you to feel sorry for him. You know how men are with their egos." Unique added. Charles nodded in agreement.
"I just don't like the whole idea of them sharing some big secret without me. It's like they have this unspoken way of communicating with one another, even while I'm right there. I don't like feeling jealous whenever she comes around." I admitted.
"Well, the secret is out now, so they don't have anything to hide anymore." Unique said.
"That still remains to be seen. When Jasmine told me the secret, I kind of got the feeling that she was only giving me a small taste of what is yet to come." I told them.
Unique shook her head and told me that this is the price I have to pay for dating a celebrity. She told me that because of Trey's looks, I should have been prepared to deal with females coming at him almost all of the time. She said that if I added on his celebrity status, it was bound to equal chaos at times. She had a point.

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Entry 17
This morning I told Trey that I would be spending the weekend with my friend Unique on Long Island. The past few days haven't felt the same between us. Yeah, I'm still pissed about the other night. After everything we had said to each other, we still aren't in agreement on the whole keeping secrets thing.
He asked me if my leaving had something to do with that conversation. It was my turn to keep a secret from him. I told him no, my leaving was because I just miss my friend. Secretly, it's because I'm going to be doing some serious thinking about this relationship. What he doesn't know can't hurt him, right?
When Charles drove me to Unique's house, I told him that he could have the weekend off. I was back in the world of non celebrities, and I could finally breathe without some crazy fanbase watching my every move and making mean comments about me. As a matter of fact, I'm just going to kick back and pretend that things are back to the way they were before I met Trey.
Charles didn't like the idea. He told me that he didn't feel comfortable leaving me completely alone since Eric has the weekend off. He told me that he was going to check into the nearest hotel and if I need him for anything, to just call him. I agreed.
When Unique opened the door, she didn't hesitate to fling herself at me. We hugged and screamed like two crazy women. When we let go of each other, she turned me from side to side.
"Where's Trey?" She asked me.
"Back in the city." I told her.
"Oh, cuz I'm over here looking for him. I thought y'all was joined at the hip." She said. I laughed at her joke. Then I told her that for this weekend, I'm officially extracting myself from him.
I introduced Charles to Unique and when he told us that he was going to be leaving, she urged him to stay for a while. He looked at me as if asking for permission. I shrugged. It wouldn't hurt anyone if he stayed a little while. Unique linked arms with him and smiled as we walked inside. We went to the kitchen.

ECJ's picture

You know what he would have to say more than that! SO its Ok for his old flames to pop up at anytime.. and not check them! Trey is being really evasive...

Ty Ranae's picture

OHHHH I HOPE YOU COMIN WITH MORE

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