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“Trey why you gotta act like that?”
“Look Nikki…I’m not gone do this with you no more…I’m done!”
“But I said I was sorry. I just don’t like how friendly you are.”
“You don’t like shit! If I say hello to someone who speaks to me it’s a problem…if I’m playin around it’s a problem…if I’m hangin wit my boys it’s a problem…what da fuck!”
“I can’t help it if I love you the way I do Trey. You always have girls on ya dick, tryna be in ya face in school, when they know we’re together.”
“They don’t mean shit to me…you never believe me doe…why you wanna stay if you don’t truss me?”
“I wanna trust you…it’s just hard. I feel like you’ve been pulling away from me lately. You leave me every summer and I know it’s for your music, but when you come back…it’s always a change.”
“Look baby…I’m sorry things had to go down like this, but I thinks it’s for the best if we just chill.” Nikki starts crying.
“No! You can’t just end it like this!”
“Nikki please don’t do dat…please baby…this is hard enough.”
“GET OUT TREY!” he stares at her face as the tears continue to run down it making her mascara run. “GET OUT!” pointing to the door…He leaves out of the front door as she wished.
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One year later
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“Yo shawty can I hollar at chu for a minute?” The young lady turns back around and walks over to Tremaine’s locker. She’s holding her books in her hand staring him in the face.
“How you doin?” Tremaine is scanning over her shapely body.
“I’m fine.”Â
“Sweetheart what’s ya name?”
“Shanell.”
“I never seen you here before you must be new.”
“I am. I just transferred here for my senior year. Today is my first day.”
“It’s also your lucky day. Look I’ma do you a favor and carry these books….taking them out of her hands…for you to ya class.
“That won’t be necessary…looking to get a name…”
“Tremaine but you can call me Trey.”Â
“Well Trey…taking the books back…thanks for the offer, but I can carry my books myself. I will however take you up on your offer to walk me to my class. I’m not sure where this room is…” showing him her schedule.
“Oh you got Mrs. Auburn…you goin my way.” walks her down the hall and up the steps to the classroom.Â
“Thanks for showing me where to go. I guess you better hurry up and get to yours before the bell rings.”Â
“Baby I’m gud…my class is right across the hall…” nodds head in that direction smiling. Shanell smiles back.Â
“Well thanks again Trey.”Â
“You’re welcome baby.” Suddenly Paige walks by Trey and Shanell since they were standing by the classroom doorway.Â
Mumbles “He at it again…agitated…Move fool!”Â
“Aye Paige…what I tell you bout dat…watch ya mouth…you can’t be da man all da time.” Shanell didn’t know what to think and just stood there listening to the two of them.
“Kiss my bootylicious black ass Trey!” Then she apologizes to Shanell.
“Sorry you had to hear that…he plucks my nerves.” Then she rolls her eyes at him and walks in the room. Shanell then stared back at Trey.
“I’ll see you later baby.” Then he hurriedly makes his way across the hall.
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Once class was over Trey was looking for Shanell but didn’t catch up to her again until he spotted her when he had lunch. He noticed her sitting with Paige. Paige was on the cheerleading squad and also the captain. Trey decided to go over and break up their little conversation they had going on.
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“What happened?” Shanell and Paige both looked at Trey wondering what he was talking about, but his focus was on Shanell.
“What do you mean what happened?” she curiously asked.
“I thought I was showing you to ya classes. You don’t need me already?” Paige folded her arms and looked at Trey like he was selling bullshit.
“Oh…I’m sorry. I only meant that one class.”
“Don’t pay him any mind Shanell. What do you want Trey?”
“Not yo ass.” Shanell looks at Trey with her mouth wide open from his response. Then Trey laughs it off and walks behind Paige to hug her. “Nah I’m just playing. How you doin today baby?” Shanell still looked puzzled. Paige sees her face and explains as Trey is still hugging her from behind.
“He’s plays around like this all the time. We have this love hate thing going on. I pays him no mind.” she stressed. Then he lets her go and puts his focus back on Shanell.
“You need a hug too baby?”Â
“I’m good.”
“You sho? I’ve been told I give the best hugs…you should lemme show you and then you can tell me whatchu think.” Shanell smiles.
“I’ll take your word for it.”
“Yeah ight. I’ll see y’all later.”
“Trey wait!” he looks back to see what Paige wants.
“Is it true that your performing again in the school’s talent show?”
“How you find dat out?”
“Is it? Just tell me because if you are I want to be there.” Then Shanell looked at Trey.
“Perform…as in what?”
“I guess you’ll have to come to the show and find out baby.” Then he walked off. Shanell couldn’t wait to find out so she asked Paige and she told her that Trey sings. She was surprised. She thought to herself, he has good looks and can sing…I better watch him.Â
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Nikki saw Trey talking to Paige and Shanell. She was sitting in the lunchroom with her girls and decided to go and see what was going on with Trey. She caught him as he was at the vending machine.
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“So you’re not going to speak to me today? You got time to talk to everyone else.”
“You know it’s not even like dat. I haven’t seen you till now…everythang cool?”
“Everything’s great….sooo you know the new girl already?” Trey puts a handful of skittles in his mouth…chewing
“Yeah I know her.”
“So you tryna talk to her now?” Trey sighs.
“How long we gone do this Nikki?”
“Do what…I can’t wanna know who’s about to take my place.”
“Do yaself a favor baby…leggo…I still love you doe…I’ll talk to you later.” he walks away
“You can’t say that to me Trey and expect me to give up on us…she yells…I’m gonna get you back!”
to be continued
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Now everyone was waiting around ready to watch Beyonce perform. Before she came out some of the staff was dressed in Hawaiian clothes with the colorful shirts and hula skirts dancing the hula as the music was playing. Two staff members noticed me and Trey watching them so the girl pulled him up and the guy pulled me up and started showing us how to hula. Trey wasnÂ’t trying to do it so I begged him to try it. His partner was standing there waiting for him to move.
“Nah she good....let her do it...I on't wonna do it...I'm chllin.” I called him a chicken. He didn’t care he wasn’t doing it. They both taught me instead. Then a lot of others were joining in trying to learn it. I stopped and walked over to Trey and asked him to dance with me on the beach. We started slow dancing. We was rocking to our own music. Then the next thing I hear is Trey singing in my ear. “Shawteee all I got is a dollar and a dream is ya gone roll wit meee…” Him singing that just took me back. That put the biggest grin on my face just thinking about how long we’ve been in each others lives and how far he has come. I stared him in his eyes as he continued to softly sing to me. Buggzi and Dontae had to keep people moving so we could have our moment. It was definitely a moment. The next thing you know it was time for Bey. Can she put on a show or what. She nailed it. I wish I could move like her. Trey wouldn’t know what to do with me then. On second thought he would know exactly what to do. It was a great show though, actually the whole day was perfect because I let nothing spoil it. Before you knew it, it was time for us to get back on the ship. We topped our evening off by catching a movie in the screening room on deck 2 and then relaxing for the night in our room.
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IÂ’ve hardly seen Trey at all today. HeÂ’s been preparing for his performance tonight which IÂ’m so excited to see. It figures they would put him at the end of the week, but now itÂ’s finally here.
I WANT MORE LOL... NICE WORK!!
Wow! girl u got me with that dream i really thought it was real, great job..U go shanell put them in their place,lol..
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People like that really bother me. I understand liking a celebrity and wishing you could be with them, but if theyÂ’re taken donÂ’t hate on the one theyÂ’re with. TheyÂ’re innocent. I think people should be happy for them if you claim to love them so much, but if IÂ’m keeping it real not everyone is gonna feel that way. I canÂ’t let it stop me from living my life with Trey. IÂ’ll be in it as long as God allows.
“I’m proud of you for standing up for yourself Shanell.”
“Yeah well it probably won’t make a difference…they really didn’t care.”
“So what…you let them know how you felt.”
“And I did it without walking away and crying.” Lynn and I start laughing. We got back over with everyone else and just as I was handing my mom her plate Trey came rolling down the line.
“WOOO!!! GO BABY!!!” I was like a cheerleader. Everyone else starting cheering and yelling too because next it was Buggzi, Dontae, then Alex, and Forrest I mean now we started seeing people that we recognized. Once they got off and found where we were they were amped up talking about it. I was so pissed because I forgot to get it on camera. Had it sitting right here and didn’t even capture it. Trey was ready to eat after that. I was ready by then too so we walked over and fixed us some food and came back over and sat on the lounge chairs.
We walked the beach and noticed they were about to start a guys against the girls celebrity volley ball match. The team for the guys consisted of Usher, Lloyd, Kevin, Terrence, and Justin Timberlake. The ladies were Gabrielle, Monica, Keri, Zoe and Jessica Alba. We decided to go over and check it out. It was fun watching them play and talk trash to one another. Kevin of course was the leader of the pack but Gabrielle was giving him the business. Everytime he was up to serve she was right on him knocking them down. They played two games. The guys won the first one and the ladies won the last. Very entertaining games within themselves.
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Fan #1 “She ain’t all dat.”
Fan #2 “I know right…can you believe he goes out wit her?”
Fan #1 “He cheatin on her anyway. I heard he‘s been creeping with his ex.”
Fan #2 laughs “Did you see him the other night flirting with all them girls in the club?”
Fan #1 “Girl yes I was one of them…laughs…he damn near gave me an orgasm with the things he said to me…he know he can get it.”
Lynn saw me suddenly stop putting food on the plate and staring at them. They were busy making their plates talking to each other paying attention to what they were doing.
“Shanell don’t even listen to them.”
“Apparently Lynn I think they want me to.” My response wasn’t at a whisper either. The chicks look up laughing. I give Lynn my plate to hold and walk over to them.
“You know, I get it that you like “Trey Songz” and probably would love to be in my shoes.”
Fan #1 “Bitch please…who said I can‘t. You put yours on the same way I do.”
I let her ignorance slide because I wanted to make my point.
“You mind if I finish…I mean just a few seconds ago you two had a lot to say that you obviously wanted me to hear. Can I talk?”
Fan #1 folds armsÂ…rolls eyes and looks away
Fan #2 “Say what you wanna say.”
“You wouldn’t have any problems if Trey was on your arm right now, but what you would have a problem with is people like yourselves being disrespectful to you. Not liking you when they don’t even know you at all. Constantly trying to come in between what you have with no regard that you’re a person with feelings too. People tend to overlook the fact that he chose me to be in his life. I didn’t magically appear here because “I” only wanted it, but I get criticized for it. So before you start trying to wear my shoes, make sure the ones you’re standing in can afford the price to walk in them, because it is at a high cost.”
Lynn put her hand on my shoulder and told me to come on. I left them standing there with turned up faces and nothing to say.
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We didn’t know what we wanted to do first. It was kinda hard to do anything once we did decide, because the fans were right there. You couldn’t get away from them like on the ship but finally a little bit of peace was restored. Trey knows I love the water so I suggested we have fun on the beach. He wanted to go Zip Lining. I told him you can go right ahead. I’ll sit right here with our moms, your grumma and Lynn. So all the guys went to get in line to do it. They had to do a turtorial run first before the real thing. While they were doing that his mom and the rest of us sat in the lounge chairs on the beach and relaxed. Shortly after, you started seeing people floating from the line in the sky making there way from the top of where it started down to the bottom. They would be screaming as they came by. I couldn’t wait to see all of them come down when it was their turn. I had my camera ready and waiting. That thing was moving fast too. I’m glad I didn’t try it because from that distance I would‘ve chickened out. Especially being in a harness all by myself. It must was a long line because we were waiting some time before we saw anyone that looked familiar. My mom was talking about being hungry so I decided to go over to the hut where the food was and make her a plate. No one else had wanted anything yet so I just fixed one for her. Lynn decided to walk over with me. I was quickly fixing my moms plate and telling Lynn I hope I didn’t miss Trey come down yet. Some fans of his were having a conversation on the other side of the buffet table. They were speaking loud enough as if they wanted me to hear it.
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Monster
I canÂ’t believe itÂ’s Thursday already. The shows have been the bomb. Trey is scheduled to perform tomorrow. WeÂ’ve seen performances by Lloyd, Nelly, Usher and Mary J. Blige already. Drake performs tomorrow too. Kevin did a late night comedy show that we saw. He is one funny dude. HeÂ’ll be doing another one on Friday. I guess for the most part this trip has been a pleasure. I canÂ’t really say IÂ’ve gotten away from stress but it still has been relaxing. I just found out from Trey that theyÂ’ll be picking a lucky winner after his performance to go out on a date with him once we get to Nassau, Bahamas. It was apart of the promotion for the contest. Well they get to have dinner with him. IÂ’ve been trying so hard to be in good spirits and not worry about it, but itÂ’s really hard. I know I probably shouldnÂ’t be worried but when it comes to him I canÂ’t help myself. I know once I start this counseling and really begin to heal IÂ’ll be ok about stuff like this. I hope.
This trip is going by so quickly. Today we’ll be docked in Labadee, Haiti. Our first stop was in Ocho Rios, Jamaica. If was fun. The whole crew along with his family hung out together that day. I got to go Jet Skiing with Trey. We did some shopping and site seeing. We had drove through Fern Gully and had a tour. His mom and grumma went ahead to the beach after that. We gave them our stuff and then went to climb “Dunn’s River Falls” and then met back up with them. That was a good day. Now we have a fun filled day planned in Labadee. This is actually Royal Carribbean’s own private island so today the only people that would be on it would be us. I thought that was pretty cool. I was looking forward to this because they were having a luau and today was the day Beyonce was going to be performing. The weather was 81 degrees so it was pleasant out. Once we got off the ship we were blanketed by the warmth. The sun kissed our skin and there was a light wind blowing.
@toniayati22 -,yes Trey has been an inspiration to me but my inspiration for writing wasn't because of him though. I've been writing before I was a Trey Songz fan but since I've been one he has become an inspiration to me. My passion for writing is of my own but thank you for the comment.
lol thanks for the comments guys...I think!
that was odd!
wow that was weird
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“I promise…shhh…it’s gone be ok…just relax…it was only just a dream.”
“Just hold me please!”
“I’m here baby…I‘m here.”
I never want to have that nightmare again. As much as I hated having them about El the fear I felt when Trey walked out on me cut just as deep. I don’t ever want to feel that way. That dream about Nelly really scared me. Sometimes I don’t even want to sleep. My nightmares seem so real. They have me questioning what’s real and what’s not when I’m awake. They just keep getting worse. After that one I decided once we got back home that I was going to talk to someone. I know I can’t keep going on like this. I love Trey too much to lose him and I love me too much to lose myself. I have yet to tell Trey this, I figured I’d surprise him. I did still end up meeting with Nelly that night. That conversation wasn‘t a dream, but I kept my questions very brief and I had Lynn come with me. I did feel awkward sitting there with him after dreaming about him, but I don’t think he could tell. It went very well.
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“Trey I’m so sorry! I had no idea he was going to do that. I didn’t even know he was going to come here or that he even knew our room number. Please don’t’ be mad at me…I honestly don’t know why that happened.” He looked at me as if he was looking at a stranger. It was so cold. I wanted him to say something to me. He just gave me this infuriating glare. It scared me. I instantly got teary eyed because I didn’t like the way he looked at me. I begged him to talk to me, to say something…anything, but he gave me nothing just a stare that scared the hell out of me. The next thing I know he was headed for the door. I quickly ran to lean on it and block him from opening it. I was desperate for him not to leave.
“NO! PLEASE DON’T WALK OUT OF HERE TREMAINE…PLEASE TALK TO ME!” He just pulled me out of the way. I kept a hold of his arm crying.
“NO…PLEASE BABY TALK TO MEEE!!!” He was as quiet as a mouse. He grabbed my hand and took it off of him and pushed his way by, making me stumble to the floor and he left. I cried out “COME BAACCKK!!!” as I watched the door close in my face. I was too queasy to go after him. I couldn’t believe this had just happened. I was so distraught. All I could do was make my way to the bed and continue to cry out until I couldn‘t cry anymore.
“Shanell! Shanell baby wake up!” Trey pulled me up and held me. “Ayeee…it’s ok…baby I‘m here!” I was in a haze for a minute still pouting. I was seeing him, but I didn’t know what to think yet.
“Baby you gotta really consider talking to somebody. Look at you cryin in ya sleep.” I continued to stare in Treys face. I noticed he was talking to me and he wasn’t upset.
“Trey.”
“Yeah baby I’m here.”
I grabbed him tightly. “Trey! I’m so sorry…I love you so much.” He pulls me back to look at me.
“Hey it’s ok. You were having a bad dream baby…you were crying saying come back but it wasn‘t real.”
Hugging him once more “Promise me you’ll never walk out on me!”
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“Well I hope you feel better.” He kept getting closer and closer to my face. “I’ma let you get some rest.” My heart was starting to beat fast. My breathing became even faster as I stared at him.
“Ok.” That was the last thing I said before Nelly kissed me and I didn‘t stop him. Once I realized what just happened I jumped up.
“Omg! What did we just do?”
“I’m sorry…I just couldn’t resist.” I started pushing Nelly toward the door. “Why did you kiss me?” Then I was starting to have a panic attack. I needed to stop and catch my breath but I was still trying to talk. “Ya…ooo…got…ta…go!”
“Not until you calm down…stop talking and breathe.” He walks me over to the chair and I sit on the arm of it. His hands are still on my sides as I’m sitting there trying to calm down, catch my breath and breathe.
“Come on take slow breaths in and out.” I ended up doing as he said slow breaths in and out. While I was doing this he started pushing my hair back.
“Is that better…yeah breathe…just calm down…” It took me a few minutes but I finally was settled down.
“I’m sorry…but I’m gonna be fine…takes another deep breath…you gotta go.” He was just staring at me still rubbing my hair. Our eyes were locked. It was something about them that made me unable to look away. I called his name. “Nelly.” He leaned in again and pressed his lips against mine and we kissed. I don’t even know why I allowed it to happen again. Trey walked in the room. I jumped up off the chair which made Nelly inch away from me some.
“Fucks goin on!”
“Trey let me explain.”
“Nigga whatchu doin in my room kissing on my girl?”
“Nelly you really need to go.” Trey looks at him.
“Nigga it’s like dat?”
“Look man I ain’t mean no disrespect I..”
“Nigga get da fuck outta here wit dat bullshit!”
“Nelly please just leave…Trey you need to talk to me it’s my fault.” Nelly sized Trey up and gave him a smirk. Trey looked at him with the animosity. Then Nelly casually left our room.
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“Oh Hey! What are you doing here?”
“Is it ok for me to come in?”
“Oh sure.” He enters the room. “If you’re looking for Trey you just missed him.”
“Nah I actually came to see you.” I go back to laying on the bed.
“Excuse me for laying down, but I was feeling sea sick.”
“I know my fighter’s not getting sick.”
“It’s crazy, just out of no where I started feeling nauseated.”
“You sure that’s what it is?”
“Yes! What brings you to my room anyway?”
“I just wanted to let you know I couldn’t meet up with you later like I had planned.”
“Oh that’s ok. You didn’t have to come and tell me that though.”
“Well I actually was coming to see if you wanted to talk now, but since you’re not feeling good we can do it another time.”
“Yeah can we…I really would like to pick your brain but I don’t have the right mind set right now.”
“Nah it’s cool. I don’t wanna stop you from relaxing anyway. I’ll see myself out.”
“No hold up…I can at least walk you to the door.” I got up off the bed and started to the door but got a little dizzy. Nelly held me up and walked me back over to the bed.
“Are you gonna be ok?”
“Yeah. I don’t know what happened.”
“Here let me get you some water.” He goes in the fridge and gives me a bottled water. He opens it for me and puts it up to my mouth to drink. I grab a hold of it myself, drank a bit of it and then I was just holding on to it.
“Thank you.”
“Here let me take that for you.” He takes the bottle and sits it on the dresser in the room. “You go ahead and lay back down.” He pulls the covers back for me to get under them. I really appreciated his kindness. I thought he was being very sweet. I slid under the covers and laid my head down on the pillow. Nelly is leaning over the bed closely watching me.
“Can I get you anything…you want me to sit your water closer to you in case you need it?”
“No it’s fine right there thanks.”
Trey u know ur ass don't need 2 have a gun with that temper of urs.. Hot dang wat nelly up 2 now knocking @ ur door..
oh crap this igga finna have a gun hope his ass no how to shoot
oohhh lawwdd!!!
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We had lunch together in one of the pizzerias, went to the arcade and played a few video games and then I started getting sea sick. The waters were starting to feel more and more choppier. Trey walked me back to the cabin. I needed to lay down. It was getting close to dinner time anyway. I told Trey he could go out if he wanted too. I didnÂ’t want him to sit around while I was laying down so he did end up leaving. I fell asleep. Ten minutes later thereÂ’s a knock on the door. I get up to see who it is. ItÂ’s Nelly.
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“Nigga just set it up for me…if not I’ll get it done on my own. Ain‘t nothing wrong wit having more protection…I’ma be so ready this time nigga won‘t even see it comin.” I walked up to Trey.
“Hi!”
startled “Hey…hey baby…how long you been in here?”
“Long enough to hear you sing two songs…I was watching from the balcony up there.”
“Have you been standing here since we been talking?”
“Well yes over there, but I waited until you were done before I interrupted…you are done aren’t you?” looks at him and Buggzi…Buggzi responds.
“Yeah Shanell we done…I’ll get that information to you once we get back. Whatchu gettin ready to do now?”
“We gone hang out together for awhile…you can go head I’ll get up witchu later.”
“Keep that CB on you and use it if you need me.”
“Ight man.” Buggzi leaves out of the theatre.
“You ok Trey?”
“Yeah baby why you askin me dat?”
“I don’t know you seem like something is bothering you.”
“I’m good…so what we gone do?”
“Ooo! There‘s this artist that sketches these really funny pictures of yourself. Let‘s go get one done of the two of us.”
“Ight.”
We went to get our pictures drawn of us together and it looked so funny to see us like cartoon characters. Kevin walked by as we were sitting there posing for the artist. His simple self was clowning Trey about the way he looked in the picture as it was being drawn. That really made us anxious to see it. Kevin was right for laughing because we did look funny. Our heads was shaped crazy looking, he gave us long chins and he had Treys bottom lip down to a science. It was a hilarious sight to see but we loved it. Afterwards we walked around so Trey could see the different shops they had. We took a walk through Central Park on deck 10. I mean you talk about duplication I felt like we were actually there. With all the trees and the flowers, the park benches down to the meters it was a date with nature.
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“Nah that’s for you to remember. Me telling you that you’re sexy is a compliment. I’m sure he’d appreciate it.”
“Maybe.”
“Well you tell me…did I say something wrong?”
“No…not at all.”
“Well what we talking bout then? Check diss out I’m bout to get some rehearsing in…won’t you come and watch…since you a fan?”
“Oh I wish I could but I got work to do myself.”
“Well how bout since you missed the opportunity to interview me we get a drink or something later and you can ask me anything you want.”
extends hand “Deal.”
“Ight how bout we meet up at the Schooner Bar on deck 4 around 10:00 pm.”
“I’ll see you there.” We both parted ways and I was feeling good. I was still getting the opportunity to have my sit down with Nelly even if it was off the record. As I walked I didn’t see Lynn anywhere. I did run into Monica. She was coming out of one of the boutiques with her sons. I did want to ask her about interviewing for our magazine, but she was spending time with her boys. I figured I’d wait until I saw her alone and then talk to her. I just said hello. By the time I was done I had 4 interviews lined up. Not bad at all for my first day. There still was no sign of Lynn anywhere.
I wondered if Trey was still rehearsing so I decided to go in the Platinum Theatre to see. He was still in there practicing. It was a closed rehearsal but since the crew new me they let me in. The Platinum Theatre was on deck 3 and 4. Since I was on 5 I walked down to 4 and watched from the upper balcony. Trey was down below on the stage. He went over two more songs before rehearsal was over. Once I noticed he was done I walked down the steps to see him. He was talking to Buggzi when I finally made it to his level. I waited for them to get done before I made myself seen.
“I need to have a license for it as soon as possible.”
“Man I don’t think you should do this. You don‘t need to get involved like dat. I told you lemme handle it.”
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“Girl I was just about to do the same thing. I think we should start on the Promenade Deck. It seemed to be a lot of people up there before.”
“Ok. I’ll meet you up there.” Me and Trey were staying on deck 7 and Lynn was on 3. We met on 5 and did our walk through.
“Omg Lynn! Is that…”
“Oh wow! clears throat…hello Nelly.”
Gives puzzled look
“Lynn Foster from OK Magazine…it hasn’t been that long now.”
“Oh…right…laughs…I’m sorry…I had to figure out the face…gives hug…How you doing?”
“I’m wonderful thank you…this is my colleage Shanell.”
Extends hand “Shanell…you look familiar.”
“She was the one that was suppose to do your interview.”
looks me over and wipes his hand across his mouth “Where I know you from?”
“Most likely being Trey Songz girlfriend.”
“Ooo I just saw Lloyd. I’ll be right back…Nelly it was good seeing you again.” Lynn walked off and left me and Nelly to continue to talk.
“Yeah…that explains the battle scar.” I thought, wow did I just hear him say that. He just got on my bad side.
“Excuse me!”
“Hold up…I’m not saying it as a bad thing or to offend you. I just remembered the story. I called it that because you’re a fighter…made it through the battle and weathered the storm…touches my chin…that‘s your battle scar.”
cleans up expression “Well thank you for clarifying that I think.”
“Thank you for listening first and letting me…you was about to go in on me.”
smiles “You’re right…I was.”
“So I missed the pleasure of being interviewed by you huh?”
“Sorry. I wish I could’ve done it too. I’ve been a fan of yours for a very long time.”
“I’ma fan of yours too.”
flashes smile “Really? In what way?”
“Anybody that can go through what you did and still smile like that…has to be admired.”
smiling even more “That’s nice of you to say.”
“I mean it…checks out frame…damn girl you sexy as hell.”
“Are you flirting with me?”
Rubs hands together “What if I was…you gotta problem with it?”
“You remember I’m with Trey right?”
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She is the sweetest person and to think they were talking about me. I sat back in my chair with mixed emotions.
“Aye…baby you ok?”
“Yeah I’m just…wow…that was Beyonce.”
“I know how you feel.”
“She actually wanted to meet me?”
“Yeah baby…she asked about you.” I was starting to feel good again.
“Can you believe that? She said she’s a fan of my work.”
talking with a mouthful “Yeah I can believe it. Your work speaks for itself.”
“Trey you’ve actually had a chance to read a few of my articles?”
“Yeah…you sound surprised.”
“I just never thought you did or even had the time.”
“It’s a lot you don’t know.”
“I don’t think I like the sound of that.”
“C’mone baby I’m not sayin it in way to make you suspicious. I’m just sayin when you were away from me I still found a way to keep you close dat’s all.”
“I don’t know what I did to deserve someone like you.”
“Think a little harder it’ll come to you.”
laughs “Ok smarty pants…that was a good one though.”
“Beyonce’s not the only one that’s beautiful. Promise me you’ll keep smiling like that.”
“I’ll promise to try how‘s that?” He smiles back.
We finally finished our breakfast and Trey went off to his rehearsal which was being held in the Platinum Theatre on deck 3. I figured I better start doing what I came here for and that was talking to people for our magazine. I went back to the cabin to get my recorder and the things I was gonna need. I noticed the cutest thing on our bed. Two swans facing each other made out of the towels. I grabbed my camera and took a picture of it. Our room attendant was definitely getting a nice tip by the end of this trip. As soon as I was on my way out the phone rang. I noticed it was Lynn.
“Hey what’s up!”
“Were we sleeping in this morning?”
“No…smiles…how come you say that?”
“I called you but I didn’t get an answer so I wasn’t sure if I was disturbing anything.”
“If you must know me and Trey had breakfast this morning.”
“Well I’m about to see who I can talk to. You wanna come?”
we are going to have to put Shanell in check lol...love her & understands why she's like that but geesh!
This is well put I'm glad she's recognizing her jealous streak, might help in the furture!
Okay Shanell u need to quit tripping before i have to kick your ass next lol
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I realized we didnÂ’t have any paper napkins. I was about to go get some, but Trey said he would. I followed him with my eyes as he got up from the table. My baby bumped in to Beyonce. I instantly felt jealous. She is so beautiful. IÂ’m sitting there watching the two of them. IÂ’m sure they were making small talk, but wow to see him smiling and her smiling back enjoying whatever was being said, had me feeling some type of way. I know Trey is such a fan of hers too, so to see that stung. I could never compete with all the beautiful woman that heÂ’ll be around on a daily basis. I suddenly lost my appetite. The next thing I know heÂ’s walking with her over to our table.
“Beyonce this is Shanell.”
Extends her hand “Hi Shanell it’s nice to meet you.”
I stand up “Same here.” I couldn’t believe he brought her over here.
“I’ve heard a lot of nice things about you.”
I look at Trey “You have?”
“You interviewed Jennifer Hudson and have done a few pieces of your own right?”
“I did, but Trey you didn’t know that.”
“How you know dat?”
“Oh no…he didn’t tell me. I read the piece you did on her a while ago. As a matter of fact I’ve saw a couple of your spreads. When I asked Trey if that was you he told me it was. I’m a fan of your work so I wanted to meet you.” My head was so far gone it was detached.
“I’m flattered. Thank you.”
“You’re welcome.”
“I’m one of your fans as well…God you’re just as beautiful in person.” Beyonce smiles and tells me thank you.
“Ight yall two can go head and admire each other while I eat.”
side eyes Trey “I would love to do a sit down with you too, if you’re interested.”
“I would love be featured in the magazine.” Beyonce gave me her room number and told me to call her and we could talk about setting something up. I was so ashamed of myself for being jealous. It’s hard not to anymore. I instantly feel threatened when any woman crosses Trey’s path. I gotta stop this.
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Trey had a lot on his plate with Shanell. Her confidence and self-esteem was gone. She constantly was looking for reassurance from him. He knew this was going to be an up hill battle, but he loved her and if he had to drill it in her head for her to believe it then he would.
lifts chin “Shanell why do you feel like you shouldn’t be in my life…I love you…it‘s that simple.”
I knew he was telling me the truth. Not only could I see it, but I felt it. I realized that IÂ’m the one thatÂ’s gonna end up sabotaging my relationship with Trey if I didnÂ’t get it together. I had to find that girl that use to be strong and didnÂ’t care what other people thought because I knew what I knew. I knew she was still in here I just had to find a way to get her to come out. I wiped my eyes.
“UH! I hate being like this and constantly putting you through all these changes…baby I’m sorry. I know I can be impossible at times and freak out on you…shaking my head…Nikkie just really irks the hell out of me. She makes it no secret that she wants you.”
“She’s not who I want…my heart belongs to you. Can’t nobody touch dat.”
“Baby I know you love me…I don’t know why I continue to question it.”
“So does this mean you‘re not mad wit me?” I shook my head yes. He pulled me close and we hugged each other in silence just letting our bodies do the talking. We were holding on to each other and not letting anything come in between us. Then he looks at me.
“You wanna go have breakfast together…I have rehersal at 10:00 am then maybe we can do somethin together afterwards.”
“Yeah, I am a bit hungry.” Me and Trey got dressed and went to have breakfast in the Windjammer Café on deck 11. It was a buffet of food. Trey didn’t waste any time piling up his plate. It was so much I didn’t know what I wanted. Trey put fruit on my plate grabbed me some strawberry yogurt, with some pancakes, eggs and a few strips of bacon. I got us some juice and then we found a table to sit down and eat.
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“Shanell.” Trey walks up from behind and stands beside me. He sees me crying. “Baby you gotta know I had no intentions of cheating on you or havin that thought cross my mind…all I could think about was this right here…wipes tears…how upset you’d be and that was last thing that I wanted to do…I don’t know how to make you believe that I don’t see any other women when it comes to you.”
“I think I’m gonna go and stay with Lynn for a bit ok.”
“No. I’m not lettin you leave…we gone talk this out…no runnin.”
“I’m not running. I just need to think about things and I can’t do it with you around me.”
“Why not?”
“Because Trey I won’t be thinking clearly. I get around you and lose my focus…I really need to think.”
“Nooo…that’s not happenin…not this time…putting his had on my wrisk…what you gotta think about? Let‘s talk.”
“Why do you feel this need to be nice to her…how come you couldn’t just let her go and whatever happened with her just happened…I mean she’s not apart of your life anymore.”
“Look, dude was grabbin on her and I just thought I’d help because I didn’t want to see nothing bad happen. I would’ve done it for a complete stranger if I thought a guy was tryna hurt ‘em. It just happened to be her. Baby I was only tryna be helpful that‘s it. Had I known it was gonna cause all diss I would’ve said fuck it. I’m sorry…believe me, I won’t be nice again.”
“Well I don’t think you should’ve been nice this time! She constantly disrespects me. Who the hell is more important to you Trey!”
sighs “Now you know you don’t even hafta ask that. I said I’m sorry…and you’re right she does disrespect you, but I’ma make sure it don’t happen again.”
I was a walking, open wound and any little thing that I came in contact with had the potential to irritate, spread and make things worse. My emotions would go from one extreme to the next. Never in between. All I seemed to do was cry.
“Why do you want me in your life Trey…why do you still care?”
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“Baby all I was doing was making sure she got to her cabin…she looked tipsy and she told me her cousin had her room key…she works in the spa… her cousin asked me to sign something for her and the next thing I know she locked me and Nikki in that room you seen us come out of…that’s how come I wasn’t here last night.” I look away for a minute, then back at him.
“Trey why are you concerned if she gets to her cabin or not ok in the first place? She brought that on herself.”
“I just didn’t want to see anything happen to her.”
“Why? Why do you care if something happened to… putting my fingers in quotes Naughty Nikki?”
“Look, she had some guy harassing her in the club…”
“The club…I thought you were going to the casino last night.”
“I was…but then Kev and them was in Catacombs so we hung out there.”
“I can’t believe you! Mr. Prince of Virginia to the rescue…”
“Baby, I was only tryna help…I didn’t know I was gonna end up getting locked in a room with her.”
“So how was that, being locked up in the room with her all night?”
“Look, nothin like dat happened if that’s what you’re thinkin…she did kiss me, but it didn’t last because I moved away from her.”
“She what!”
“I’m being honest with you Shanell. I was telling her over and over again how I was in love with you and out of nowhere she kisses me.”
I threw my hands up and walked out on the balcony. This story was getting to be way too much. Trey didn’t follow me out there right away. I saw him sitting on the bed with his head down. I shut my eyes and let the wind blow on my face. I was trying so hard to hold back the tears but I couldn‘t. I just felt like I was never going to get to happy and stay there. I wondered why was love so hard. Why is it so hard to hold on too and just as hard to let it go. Nikki is just like the millions of others that want Trey with the mentalily of by any means necessary. How many more times am I going to have to fight. God what am I suppose to do? I really needed an answer.
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