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    October 28, 2010

    This is a work of fiction. I just wanted to see what you all think about my fantasies about being a Trey Songz stalker. Enjoy!

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on Oct 28, 2010 - 03:24AM

This is a work of fiction. I just wanted to see what you all think about my fantasies about being a Trey Songz stalker. Enjoy!

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Entry 40 cont'd
What if that really was it? Was he just being stubborn, waiting for me to make the first move? Even still, what if Kelli had already made her first move? Trey was bound to need a shoulder to lean on too.
Juicy told me that I was giving the girl too much credit, especially since it was so obvious that she wasn't right in the head. I asked her how she came to that conclusion.
"First of all, if the man was beating her down like you say he was, then she had to be out of her mind to stay with him. You don't know her background either. You don't know how many other men may have abused her as well. That's probably all she ever knew. Nobody probably ever tried to help her either. You know how some people, even her friends and family, could be judgemental and tell her how foolish she was to stay with him. After awhile, she probably just stopped confiding in people."
"She confided in Trey." I still can't get over the nerve of that chick.
"Well maybe Trey was the first man who tried to help her. If she's not right in the head, then she probably mistook his kindness for something else. What if she was looking for a way out of that relationship and the only way she saw how, was with Trey?" Again, Juicy was the voice of reason and as much as I hated to admit it, what she was saying made sense.
"What about Trey not trying to see my side of it, though?" I asked.
"Y'all both let your anger get the best of you that night. Maybe after everything was said and done he took time to think about it from your point of view. And yeah, he probably had to admit that he messed up by coming at you that way. In the heat of the moment, the only thing you two cared about was proving your own points. That happens. Now what you two have to do is communicate." Juicy was on a roll!
"How are we going to do that when we're not speaking to one another?" It was more of a rhetorical question, but Juicy had an answer for it anyway. She told me not to give up so easily.
"Make the first move."

@missjoye's picture

i hope she calls!

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Entry 40 cont'd
"All I know is that when I met him last week, he seemed like the only person he wanted to be with was you. He was very attentive and he said you made him happy."
I couldn't disagree with her on that one. Trey was being his usual irresistible self on the night he'd met my friends. He even told them that they were invited to any show they wanted to see whenever he had one in New York.
"I think you should try and make it right with the girl." Juicy told me. Everything just kept boiling back down to that chick.
"Maybe I could help her get rid of her man." I said, then I told Juicy about the dream I'd had.
"I don't want to tell you what to do, but your conscience isn't letting you let it go. You have to make it right with her. Essence, I've known you all of your life. You've always been beautiful, intelligent, and you've always been able to take care of yourself. We've been through a lot together, and I've always admired how you've carried yourself, no matter what the situation. Going crazy like this over a man isn't you. A man has never been something that you worried about."
I hated how she kept reducing Trey to being just 'a man'. Trey isn't just 'a man'. He's 'The Man'. He's everything I want, and everything I need. She did have a point, though. Ever since I got with Trey, I've been a wreck. I don't know why he affects me in ways that no other man has been able to do. It's like deep in my core I know we're meant to be together.
I told Juicy that no matter how my relationship with Trey has caused me to behave, it doesn't matter now because it's over.
Again, she told me that she didn't think it should be. She told me that it was our first fight, we're supposed to be able to come back from it, if what we claimed to have was love.
"What if he doesn't want me back, and now he's with Kelli? He hasn't called me. I take that as a sign that it's over."
"Girl, what if he's just waiting for you to call him?" When Juicy said it, the idea sounded so logical.

Anmariee_1ofTrey'sFinest's picture

Trey should tell kelli DON'T FORGET UR RING..........

Daniel_Shawn's picture

omg essence keep it 2gether girl u gotta get trey back

Anmariee_1ofTrey'sFinest's picture

I hope Trey prove 2 be different and not fall in Kelli's arms or trap she set out there....URRRRR

Anmariee_1ofTrey'sFinest's picture

Essence is losing herself...Trey did not act like he would ever leave her it was all in her head. Due 2 her imagination she done pushed him in Kelli's arms SMMFHIDB

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Entry 40
I looked out her kitchen window and watched bluish green ocean meet with the sky that was a pinkish blue hue. I just stared out there as a calming feeling came over me. I felt a million miles away from the city.
"It's so pretty out there." I said. Juicy told me that if it wasn't so cold out, we could sit out on her terrace for a while. I told her with the way I was feeling, I didn't want to see any body's terrace. She asked me what was wrong, and I told her the whole sorry story.When I finished telling her, at first she didn't say anything. I told her that because of it all, I knew that things were over between me and Trey.
"I don't know about all that, but I do see why he was angry with you. I mean really, Essence, you really think what you did was ok?"
I groaned. "I'm never going to live that down, am I?"
"Essence, I know you were mad, believe me, I know how she must have made you feel. But you know I am a hundred percent against a man putting his hands on a woman. I would be feeling a lot better if you would've hit her."
I told her that if I hadn't been so out for her blood that night, that maybe I would have been thinking more clearly. All I could think about was that she wanted to get with Trey, and I wasn't about to have that.
"Then I think you need to think about how much you really love Trey, versus how obsessed you are over him. The feelings you have for him caused you to do something crazy. And to be honest, you were never really in danger of losing him."
I told her that just the thought of losing him to anyone was enough to drive me crazy. Juicy wanted to know why I was so sure that I could lose him to another woman so easily. She asked me if he was cheating on me.
"That's just it! Something must have gone on between them. How else could she feel so comfortable with doing what she did? She behaved as if Trey would just leave me for her just like that. He must have made her feel as if he would." I said. I was sad again. I felt like crying.

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Entry 39 cont'd
The dream was crazy. Kelli told me that she wanted me to help her beat up her man, and then take him to the train station and dump him on the tracks. In the dream, I told her that her plan would never work. She told me that she was sorry for sleeping with Trey and if I helped her, she'd abort their baby. In my dream I saw myself stepping away from her, only to fall off of the balcony.
I woke up screaming and feeling dazed and confused. I know that I have to get out of this apartment. I've been hiding out in here all weekend because I wanted to avoid seeing Trey, and anyone who might ask me about him. I don't want to have to be fake and keep up appearances.
I guess I'll go see CoCo. I don't have to fake it with her. My little nephew will probably make me feel a whole lot better.

Entry 40
I didn't go to my sister's house after all. I ended up taking a two hour ride on the train to Queens to see Juicy instead. I was almost to my sister's house when I thought about the dream I'd had. Oh, the horror, imagining Kelli being pregnant with the baby my womb is still craving for. As sweet as my nephew is, being around him would only make me mourn the baby I'll never have with Trey.
I still needed some woman to woman advice, so I called Juicy. When I told her that I had something really important to talk to her about, she told me to come over. CoCo will read all about this soon anyway, besides, I thought that the train ride would do me good. I'd be escaping from hell for a little while.
When I got to Juicy's house she was happy to see me. We hugged and kissed each other's cheeks. As Juicy took my coat, she admired my cashmere scarf and gloves.
"Girl with all the money you make, I don't know why you don't just buy yourself a car."
I almost teared up as I told her that Trey had bought them. I turned away from her and stated that with all of the money she made, I don't know why she didn't just move to the city.
"Although, I do admire your beach front view."

Karen523's picture

Girl I don't be noticing the mistakes but I'm definitely ready for he next entry. You're a great writer but I'm like feenin for more lmaoo.

lala072 AspecialAngel's picture

please.........lol i need the next entry tonight....lol

Essence711's picture

Heyyy Angels!!
Just wanna say thanks for all of your feedback about the story. Thank you for giving my characters real life. LOL I'm as interested in all of your comments as you are in the story.
I read through the story, and I discovered a mistake. It probably won't matter if I correct it, a lot of you probably didn't even notice it, but i'm my own worse critic, so since I mentioned it, i'll correct it.
I wrote that Trey said he tried to help Kelli the night before their second date, but he should've said, the night before their first date. I don't know why I wrote the word 'second'. Mistakes happen, as I catch them, I will correct them. Now let me finish writing this story. LOL.

Joie_Neverson's picture

OMG...WE need more!!! :)

Karen523's picture

@Anmariee girl yes they're made to be together...ok come on with the next entry...the suspense is killing me.

V@lleyGurl's picture

I sooooo luvie this!...can't wait til the next entry! #awesome

Daniel_Shawn's picture

MORE MORE MORE I'M DYING HERE LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anmariee_1ofTrey'sFinest's picture

NP# Made To Be Together 4 Trey & Essence

ECJ's picture

@missjoye &@Anmariee I'm onboard with the 2 of you! lol

Anmariee_1ofTrey'sFinest's picture

@missjoye good prediction...I wonder if keli is going 2 do sumthan stupid 2 help Trey see tha light and realize Essence had a small point

SexySagLuvSongz's picture

OMG....Essence......I can't say what I'm feeling right now!!! This story is off the f*n chain...c'moooonn wit the next post. Trey needs to come back....they can't just end things like that!?!?

@missjoye's picture

i predict essence is gonna do somethin to help kelli and trey is gonna forgive her and they'll get back together

Tricia AKA @GimmeUnusual's picture

More....more...more!!! What's next? Will they get back together? The suspense is KILLING me!!!

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Entry 39
The other night keeps replaying over and over in my mind like some psycho wacky movie. Some scenes are distorted, while others keep running in fast motion, then slowing down to a dramatic slow roll. I try not to think about it, but the thoughts are always there, lurking. I can't find peace from it at all.
When I left his house the other night, we just sort of said bye to each other and that was that. I came back up here and thus began my solitude in the cave of misery. Neither one of us has contacted the other. I haven't done so because I still can't find the right words to say. I still feel that my concerns weren't dealt with that night, therefore, I don't really know if Trey has considered my side in the whole situation. I figure if I call him up here to discuss it, it might lead into another argument. Better to just leave it alone.
I guess the pain will go away sooner or later. Everybody is always saying that time heals a broken heart. I wonder who's watch they were using because mine seems to be running a couple of hours behind. The days seem to have gotten longer.
There's not a moment that passes that I don't still want Trey. He's become a real part of me, a part of this apartment. I still expect to see him out the corner of my eye sitting by the window, sketching. I can hear him in the bathroom, practicing his songs while he's giving himself a line up. Even showering feels different. I keep hoping he'll step into the tub with me so that we can just wash away all of the hurt and disappointment we've caused one another. Oh, and what I wouldn't give to have the house smelling so good from him being in the kitchen, making some kind of country meal his Grumma likes to make him.
After my shower I decided to lay back down and pretend he was out on tour. That way it's kind of easier to deal with him not being here.
I must have dozed off because I had this crazy dream that Kelli knocked on my door, asking me for help. She wanted to jump her man.

CharBaby's picture

WOW................I STARTED TEARING UP MY DAMN SELF!!!!

Daniel_Shawn's picture

OK SO I FEEL LIKE A STALKER I BEEN REFRESHING THIS PG 4 AN HOUR LOL

Joie_Neverson's picture

*drops @ Tricia* Guarl i agree with you 100%!!

Daniel_Shawn's picture

DAMN!!!!!! @tricia lmao

VintageAngel's picture

Essence honey....yu got me fiendin like an addict for the next hit! Ive been checkin this dam post since last night waitin on an update...This story gives me LIFE!!!!!!!!!!! COME WIT IT MAAM!!!!!!

@missjoye's picture

THIS CAN'T BE THE END............

ECJ's picture

lol @Tricia

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