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“Trey why you gotta act like that?”
“Look Nikki…I’m not gone do this with you no more…I’m done!”
“But I said I was sorry. I just don’t like how friendly you are.”
“You don’t like shit! If I say hello to someone who speaks to me it’s a problem…if I’m playin around it’s a problem…if I’m hangin wit my boys it’s a problem…what da fuck!”
“I can’t help it if I love you the way I do Trey. You always have girls on ya dick, tryna be in ya face in school, when they know we’re together.”
“They don’t mean shit to me…you never believe me doe…why you wanna stay if you don’t truss me?”
“I wanna trust you…it’s just hard. I feel like you’ve been pulling away from me lately. You leave me every summer and I know it’s for your music, but when you come back…it’s always a change.”
“Look baby…I’m sorry things had to go down like this, but I thinks it’s for the best if we just chill.” Nikki starts crying.
“No! You can’t just end it like this!”
“Nikki please don’t do dat…please baby…this is hard enough.”
“GET OUT TREY!” he stares at her face as the tears continue to run down it making her mascara run. “GET OUT!” pointing to the door…He leaves out of the front door as she wished.
One year later
“Yo shawty can I hollar at chu for a minute?” The young lady turns back around and walks over to Tremaine’s locker. She’s holding her books in her hand staring him in the face.
“How you doin?” Tremaine is scanning over her shapely body.
“I’m fine.”
“Sweetheart what’s ya name?”
“Shanell.”
“I never seen you here before you must be new.”
“I am. I just transferred here for my senior year. Today is my first day.”
“It’s also your lucky day. Look I’ma do you a favor and carry these books….taking them out of her hands…for you to ya class.
“That won’t be necessary…looking to get a name…”
“Tremaine but you can call me Trey.”
“Well Trey…taking the books back…thanks for the offer, but I can carry my books myself. I will however take you up on your offer to walk me to my class. I’m not sure where this room is…” showing him her schedule.
“Oh you got Mrs. Auburn…you goin my way.” walks her down the hall and up the steps to the classroom.
“Thanks for showing me where to go. I guess you better hurry up and get to yours before the bell rings.”
“Baby I’m gud…my class is right across the hall…” nodds head in that direction smiling. Shanell smiles back.
“Well thanks again Trey.”
“You’re welcome baby.” Suddenly Paige walks by Trey and Shanell since they were standing by the classroom doorway.
Mumbles “He at it again…agitated…Move fool!”
“Aye Paige…what I tell you bout dat…watch ya mouth…you can’t be da man all da time.” Shanell didn’t know what to think and just stood there listening to the two of them.
“Kiss my bootylicious black ass Trey!” Then she apologizes to Shanell.
“Sorry you had to hear that…he plucks my nerves.” Then she rolls her eyes at him and walks in the room. Shanell then stared back at Trey.
“I’ll see you later baby.” Then he hurriedly makes his way across the hall.
Once class was over Trey was looking for Shanell but didn’t catch up to her again until he spotted her when he had lunch. He noticed her sitting with Paige. Paige was on the cheerleading squad and also the captain. Trey decided to go over and break up their little conversation they had going on.
“What happened?” Shanell and Paige both looked at Trey wondering what he was talking about, but his focus was on Shanell.
“What do you mean what happened?” she curiously asked.
“I thought I was showing you to ya classes. You don’t need me already?” Paige folded her arms and looked at Trey like he was selling bullshit.
“Oh…I’m sorry. I only meant that one class.”
“Don’t pay him any mind Shanell. What do you want Trey?”
“Not yo ass.” Shanell looks at Trey with her mouth wide open from his response. Then Trey laughs it off and walks behind Paige to hug her. “Nah I’m just playing. How you doin today baby?” Shanell still looked puzzled. Paige sees her face and explains as Trey is still hugging her from behind.
“He’s plays around like this all the time. We have this love hate thing going on. I pays him no mind.” she stressed. Then he lets her go and puts his focus back on Shanell.
“You need a hug too baby?”
“I’m good.”
“You sho? I’ve been told I give the best hugs…you should lemme show you and then you can tell me whatchu think.” Shanell smiles.
“I’ll take your word for it.”
“Yeah ight. I’ll see y’all later.”
“Trey wait!” he looks back to see what Paige wants.
“Is it true that your performing again in the school’s talent show?”
“How you find dat out?”
“Is it? Just tell me because if you are I want to be there.” Then Shanell looked at Trey.
“Perform…as in what?”
“I guess you’ll have to come to the show and find out baby.” Then he walked off. Shanell couldn’t wait to find out so she asked Paige and she told her that Trey sings. She was surprised. She thought to herself, he has good looks and can sing…I better watch him.
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Nikki saw Trey talking to Paige and Shanell. She was sitting in the lunchroom with her girls and decided to go and see what was going on with Trey. She caught him as he was at the vending machine.
“So you’re not going to speak to me today? You got time to talk to everyone else.”
“You know it’s not even like dat. I haven’t seen you till now…everythang cool?”
“Everything’s great….sooo you know the new girl already?” Trey puts a handful of skittles in his mouth…chewing
“Yeah I know her.”
“So you tryna talk to her now?” Trey sighs.
“How long we gone do this Nikki?”
“Do what…I can’t wanna know who’s about to take my place.”
“Do yaself a favor baby…leggo…I still love you doe…I’ll talk to you later.” he walks away
“You can’t say that to me Trey and expect me to give up on us…she yells…I’m gonna get you back!”
to be continued
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Hello Ms. April and grumma Rose. she hugs them both.
Nikki hey sweetie! I didnt know you were on here. Then she speaks to everyone else.
Hello everyone. We all say hello. There was this awkwardness suddenly making its presence at our table. I was too through when I saw her. Buggzi looked at Trey and spoke real low key.
We gone see some fireworks early this trip.
Nigga you would say some shit like dat.
Trey thanks for having that contest so I could be apart of this trip. I look up at him.
Dats all apart of promotions baby.
Im really looking forward to the shows. focusing on Trey He doesnt say anything. Well I just wanted to say hello and maybe we all can get together for some fun before we leave go dancing or hang out at the pool. I figured Id be nice and say something since it appeared no one else really knew what to say with both of us there.
Sounds fun huh baby. Trey was into his plate.
Mmhmm whatever you say baby. Nikki was disappointed he didnt seem happy that she was even there and really wasnt paying her any attention.
Oh and Shanell Im really sorry about what happened to you. I see it was really bad. I laughed to myself a little bit on that. I couldnt believe she fixed her lips to say that. Now it was tension at the table too. I could see it in everyone elses face. Trey looked up from his plate and stared at her not believing he heard her say that. Then grumma Rose spoke.
Young lady I think if thats your way of expressing concern you need to start out by making it sound less offensive and more sincere.
Oh no I didnt mean
Its ok grumma Rose Thanks for your concern Nikki and yes it was bad, but Im ok and still here.
And my baby is still beautiful as ever muah! Oh I was so relieved when he came to my rescue like that. She really is unbelievable. I would never stoop that low to try to hurt anyone like that, but I see she is very malicious.
LMAO!!! @Stlgirl4lfye2010 & @TSAngel_Ty "crazy mofo" & "Psycho fan" lol...you guys comments be having me dying...I love it!
@OhSoLuhvlee - You're about to find out!
@JamRoC_4eVa - :o you're so lucky! I'm coming to visit! lol
Girl thats my home JAMAICA, u sure will have fun lol...I'm glad to c their happy juss hope nothing crazy happen..
I bet it's Crystal. Haven't heard from her in a minute.
all Iknow is it better not be they Psycho fan or El...but as usual great post! Im diggin this :)
Aww shit it better not be that crazy mofo
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Lloyd, Drake, Monica I was steady thinking which one was I gonna talk to first. But for now we eat. We had so many laughs at the table. I was surprised Forrest and Alex was eating with us. I probably will only see those two at dinner time. Then again the way Alex was talking about getting some real food, since the formal dining wasnt fried chicken or ribs, I may not see them after tonight. My mom got to eat with us for a bit and then she had to get back to work. I love my mommy. I felt a certain comfort knowing that she was here even though I knew we werent going to get to spend a lot of time together. Lynn was also at the table for awhile and the she wanted to do some things on her own so she ended up leaving.
I was sitting by Trey hugging his arm and laying my head on his shoulder when we had an unexpected guest come to our table.
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You get to see me now with no clothes on blows him a kiss You were gone a long time.
I know. Trey is steady staring at my naked body. Then he holds himself. I decided to pull him right in since he was staring so hard, clothes on and all.
Yo! Aw ok someones in one of their playful moods I see done got my sneaks all wet in shit.
Theyll dry. He kicks them off and I help him take off his shirt and the rest of his clothes before they get too soaked.
Baby you got this water hot!
I cant help it if you make my temperature rise get it I make it hot temperature rise
Trey shakes his head smiling I must really love you girl. I wrap my arms around him and press my nose to touch his while wiggling my head.
And you better not ever forget that! We kiss and made time for one more love making session before dinner. Now we were pressed for time. I still needed to get my hair straight and Trey needed time to get his swag right hes so extra. We were rushing around that cabin looking for shoes and the right accessories, his cologne and my perfume. I guess thats what I get for not unpacking our things before having fun. My baby looked sharp
with his tux on once we were dressed. I wore a pretty short length, red spaghetti strapped cocktail dress with silver heals and accessories. I pulled my hair up in the back, but left some straight down on the side where the scar was. I still hated looking at that thing and even though Im on this beautiful ship with so many reasons to be happy, I still sit here and think about it. Instead of my mole being an admired feature this scar has become the main attraction and not seen in a positive light. We all met up to get our pictures taken with the captain first and then headed to dinner. Everyone looked so beautiful. Thats all you saw were people in formal wear like it was the awards or something. I saw people on the ship that I didnt see earlier.
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I asked them what they were about to do. Grumma Rose was ready to go back to the cabin for a bit and Ms. Tucker wanted to go check out the H20 Zone and see the parade. Then she asked if we wanted to come too. We figured we had plenty of time to explore the rest of the ship so we decided to go along with her.
We all left to go to our cabins and get changed. Once we were ready we called each others rooms and then met up by the elevators on deck 11. We decided to go chill in the hot tubs that were out there. We actually found one that was vacant so the three of us hopped in. We had a good spot to watch the parade and also relax. It was so beautiful out, not to mention the hot tub was feeling good. Lynn had asked Ms. Tucker did she plan on doing any excursions once we docked. She said she wasnt sure yet. I told them I wanted to definitely go Jet Skiing once we got to Ocho Rios, Jamaica if I didnt do anything else. We had a good time out there talking and enjoying the scenery. We got out for a little while to get some drinks and just enjoyed the music that was playing and all the dancers from the parade dancing around the pools in single file. It was really nice. They had food out there but we planned on eating in the formal dining room. It was getting close to dinner time anyway and tonight was the Captains Welcome Aboard Reception so we had to dress formal. By now it was 5:00 pm. The dinner schedules were 6:00 or 8:00pm. They were going to be taking pictures with the captain from 7:30 - 8:00 pm. We decided to get ready so we could get our pictures taken before dinner. Once I got to the room I couldnt believe it was a little after 5:00 and Trey wasnt back yet. I just went on and got in the shower and started getting myself ready. Five minutes into my shower Trey walks in.
slides door open Damn baby in the shower again?
I was in the hot tub with you mom and Lynn.
I missed you in a bikini?
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Well if it isnt miss bliss.
It shows huh?
More than a little bit.
I cant help it girl. We just had the most amazing time and
Rub it in why dont you.
Im sorry ok I wont say anymore what were you about to do?
I dont know I was only putting my things away. I sit in the chair. I had to smile because it just reminded me of the naughty acts I just did in it, in my room. Lynn looks at me. Ok get it out come on miss giggles.
No no Im done as you were saying?
Nothing, but that I was just putting my things away as you can see you would think I had a roommate.
I still need to do that. I have stuff still in suitcases. Ive been into everything else but them.
Why you ask? What did you wanna do?
I was just about to walk around see who we can see and continue to look at this big beauty.
Ok .looks at watch thatll probably take us up to dinner.
Yeah thats what I was thinking.
Fine with me lets go.
Lynn and I already checked out the H20 Zone so we took the elevator up to the Royal Promenade on deck 5. Ok we found out that the shops were on that level and we just had to see what was in them. I couldnt believe how much it looked like we were walking on a mall. I wanted to come back up here so bad with Trey. It was little pizzerias, Ben and Jerrys ice cream parlor, a profession portrait studio, I mean it was a lot of nice little shops on board. As we were walking we saw Zoe Saldana, and Gabriel Union. I was glad we were going to be sailing for a week because its gonna take me a few days to realize who all is on this ship. I saw a vendor with all these designer watches. I knew Trey would like that. As I approached it I bumped into his mom and grumma Rose. I introduced them to my co-worker Lynn. She was very pleased to meet the other women in Treys life. I noticed his mom had already beat me to the punch and had a watch case in her hand. She showed it to me. It was a stunning time piece. I knew he was gonna love it once he saw it.
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Baby you are so good to me I have been so fulfilled and happy since Ive been with you. I feel like I can face anything because youre by my side.
Im glad you feel dat way I hope to always make you feel dat way baby. I look up at him and confidently say, You will. Then I kiss him real quick. Come with me babe.
Where we goin?
We should be taking advantage of every second we have together.
I thought we were.
Were not done.
I pulled him up from the chair that we chrisened and led him into the shower. It was nice and cozy since it was a tight spot. We could do wonders in tight spots. As the water ran over our bodies I picked up the bar of soap and rubbed it all over Treys body. He stood away from the shower head as I lathered him up. He just stood there with his head back and eyes closed enjoying his body rub. I started on his chest moving the bar of soap in circles smothering his nipples and his tight abs with it. Then I lathered up my hands real good and sat the soap down and washed my favorite part of his anatomy. My touch ended up making him hard all over again. I couldnt let it go to waste. He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around him. Then he leaned on the shower wall while I place him inside of me. He made love to me nice and slow. Ive never gotten tearfully emotional when we would make love, but for some reason today with him I cried tears of joy. I loved him so much and in that moment I just wanted to give him more of me than ever before because thats what he does for me all the time. Hes so cute he thought he was hurting me and asked me was he stroking me too hard. I told him no baby I just love you.
*******
The Stupid Things
Trey went on his way to his meeting and I decided to continue to look around the ship some more. I figured since it was the first day I definitely wasnt getting any interviews set up until people were settled so I had free time. I walked to Lynns cabin first to see if she was there. She was.
long ass he don't get hurt or go to jail he can do wateva it is dat he need to do!!! & him & shanell r too precious I luv it.
Damn i miss a lot first off, how the HELL E1 got off.. I just hope trey don't kill his ass.. Man hope he don't ruin their lil vaca..
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It tickles and it makes me laugh.
You betta not mess with that.
You know I aint goin in there I just love ya ass it gets my dick hard. We were silent for a moment just hugging each other. Baby I gotta meet up with the Director to discuss this benefit and performing shedules and stuff like dat.
When you gotta go.
We still got some time Im just telling you but after that the rest of my day is free.
Good You wanna do Kareoke with me later on?
I dont know baby I gotta save my voice you know if I get up there Im gonna sing I aint gone be bullshittin.
So what you tryna say Trey. That youll show me up?
Yeah! I give him a love tap.
I just thought it would be fun you tryna be all serious wit it
Ok. Ill try to act like I cant sing.
I believe you think ya shit dont stink sometimes dont you?
I ont know come in bathroom with me and tell me.
You so lucky I love you. He holds me more.
I am lucky you love me Nah baby Ill do karaoke and anything else you want us to do on here. I love you girl. Whatever you want I want you to have no matter how big or how small. Then he kissed my forehead and squeezed me tight. He sat there thinking about El being released and how he knew the fear I was going feel when I found out. But this time was gonna be different. He was going to make it a point to protect me at all cost, so for now his mind was made up on making this the most relaxing and stress free break for me. Then once I got home and found out the news he was gonna see to it that I knew I would be safe and wouldnt need to feel fearful or scared of anything.
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Once he was nice and wet I ran my tongue around the head and twirled it on the bulls eye.
Ahh Fuck! That really was sending him into planet erotica. I figured I teased him enough and went on to take him in my mouth and got my grub on. I sucked him into a metal frenzy that he came so fast I dont think he was even expecting it. There was no need for my drink..he quenched my thirst. He had to calm down from the intense high that he was on but it was far from over.
Hold up baby breathing hard gimme a minute be patient Im gone please you. I got up off my knees. Trey stood up and kicked off his sneaks and took off his clothes. I loved looking at his body and how it was a perfect fit to mine. He sat right back in the chair. He pulled my panties down and kissed my exposed skin. Soft gentle kisses one by one in different spots until he kissed my wet lips. One quick lick made me gasp. Then another made me moan and another had me saying ooo yesss. I propped my leg up on the chair and my baby sent me into the land of passion pleaure and a much wanted pain. The kind of pain that hurts oh so good. I couldnt contain myself. Then he scooted a little closer to the edge of the chair and grabbed my hips.
Guide me inside you baby. His wish was my command. I put him inside of me and slowly sat down on his pleasure stick. He fucked me ceaselessly right in that chair. Lifting my body from time to time getting his stroke just right. I dug in his shoulders squeezing them tightly as I bit my bottom lip to hold back my screams so the neighbors wouldnt be disturbed but damn that after the first few seconds the neighbors would have to hear this.
Fuck me Trey! He had me calling his name and kissing his lips neurotically because I needed to have every part of my body envolved. We were so in sink with one another we climaxed together. Trey fell back in the chair and I collapsed forward on him afterwards. After a while I feel his hands tracing the split in my behind.
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Let me just say this Trey bumped into so many people before we finally arrived at our room it wasnt funny. Every time I thought we were on our way we werent. There were fans that won this trip by contest only so once they saw him they stopped him for autographs and photos. He also ran into Fab and Kevin and they talked for a quick minute. Then we ran into his family. Everyone hugged and was happy to see each other. Trey was talking to his Grumma for awhile, while me and his mom was doing a little bit of catching up. I was happy to see them, dont get me wrong, but I wanted to spend some time alone with Trey while we had the time. I swear I love his mom because she could sense that I wanted him all to myself. I guess too because I was holding on to him so tight like my life depended on it. Which Alex could not let slide.
(A) Shanell whatchu a leech now? Then he started making sucking faces while he sucked his arm. I started laughing.
(S) Boy Ima hurt you.
(A) Its ok believe me he aint goin nowhere simulates reeling in a fish hooked! Trey shook his head at him.
(T) Nigga always got jokes.
(M)Trey you two go head and do what you were about to do. Well get together later.
Trey kissed his mom and grumma and then we left. I was actually surprised we finally got to our cabin room with no more interruptions. Trey walked in the room and sat in the chair and laid his head back with his eyes shut. I just watched him. His legs were gapped wide open and his print was nicely showing through. I sat my drink down and went to close the curtains. That made him pop his head up. Then I inched out of my shorts and took off my shirt. I walked over to him and unzipped his zipper. Slipped my fingers through the whole in his boxers and brought out my other companion. I massaged him very gently. He faintly spoke.
Ooo yeah baby just like dat He moaned as he ran his hands through my hair and pulled it trying to give it a massage.
how that mother fucker get out hope somebody kill his ass and hope that damn girl don't show up again the crazy fan
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You know Im mister steal yo girl so once we do this ya man aint gettin you back.
I guess if I do this he never had me in the first place huh?
I gotchu alright. Then he wraps his arms around my waist as he sits. I look down into his handsome face.
I love you. We kiss again definitely creating an audience. I take his hand.
Come on baby lets get you fed. I picked up my drink, and we walked over so I could say goodbye to Lynn. She sees us walking up hand in hand.
Uh I got some things I need to handle hugging on Treys arm blushing so you gone be ok?
Girl yeah go head.
Hi Lynn.
Hello Trey How are you?
Im good and you?
Good not as good as you two though. Me and Trey look at each other smiling.
Ok Lynn we gotta go see you at dinner?
Ok be careful about something unexpected popping up. Trey was like what she talking bout I just laughed since I knew I told him it was nothing. Little did I know he had concerns about me not finding out about El so her innocent comment raised a concern. He figured she couldnt have been talking about that because my reaction wouldve been different so he let it go.
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If not than me and her plan on having lunch when she takes her break. I didnt bump into Trey or anyone from the unit or even his family members cant wait to see them. I did however scope out the celebs that were on board. I saw Usher, Fabolous, Mary J. Blige, Tank, Kevin Hart, Beyonce was even on board and that was just out of the ones thats already boarded. I definitely gotta have a sit down with Bey.
Me and Lynn decided to go and sit pool side and just relax. They were having a parade later this evening so were watching the workers as they set up. They had music playing and people were dancing just enjoying themselves before the festivities. We laughed and joked about how this was the way to work and Bill could keep sending us out on assignments like this. I was starting to get thirsty since it was really hot out.
Im bout to go to the bar you want anything?
Nah Im good.
Ok be right back. Im waiting at the bar to be served and as soon I was about to place my order I was interrupted.
I think I just found my future wife. I give him a seductive smile.
You sure about that?
Fosho mama no lie. Then the bartender is ready to take my order. I fixed my mouth to speak but his words came out.
Shed like a Mango-Berry Daiquiri. He knows me so well.
Anything for you sir?
Nah my thirst quencher standin right in front of me thanks. He was really blowing up my head. I wanted to kiss him so bad but I figured Id play along. He was sitting on the stool beside where I was standing. So you drinking alone?
I guess I am since youre not ordering anything.
Id rather eat can you help me wit dat? I start laughing. Then I move in on him and put my lips close to his face.
I can feed you a meal so good youll be begging for more. Then he steals a kiss. Ima let that slide since youre cute.
Baby whats ya name?
Shanell.
Well Shanell Im Tremaine. You mind if I take you to my room so you can be my meal?
Baby Ill be ya meal and ya dessert.
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Trey
Trey was still waiting in line to board the ship and check in when he received a call by Shanells dad.
Whats up pop how you doin?
Is Shanell with you?
Nah I havent seen her yet everything ight?
Im afraid not I have some bad news that I think you should be aware of.
What is it?
It looks like El has been released. Treys face turned from relaxed to tense.
Well howd dat happen?
It seems the police screwed up by not following proper protocol. They only could get him on breaking probation and being under the influence.
No weapon charges or Assault Battery Recklessness
Trey I know its a whole host of charges that shouldve been brought against that bastard but all I know is he will be released.
Damn!
Do me a favor Trey dont make her aware of this until after you guys get back. Thats the last thing she needs to be worrying about right now.
No doubt preciate the heads up dont worry she in good hands I promise you she gone be safe.
Im counting on it talk to you later son try to still have a nice time.
Fosho. Treys now standing in the line with no expression. Fuck!
Buggzi notices his demeanor changed and questions him.
Yo what was up with that phone call?
El is out.
Dat nigga out?
Yeah apparently LAPD fucked up you know what dat mean right?
Nigga I know what it mean you just keep ya mutha fuckin hands clean.
Dey gone be clean you know Im allergic to dirt gotta get some real effective cleaning products to take care of a certain germ you feel me?
Im witchu on that let me handle it tho.
Nigga you know me once I set my mind on something I cant be stopped.
Well talk more later. Go on up there and check in.
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I had a nice little walk around the ship. I didnt get to look everywhere but I did go and see my mom. She works in the infirmary. We had a nice little chat. Were going to get together with Treys family and have dinner if my mom can get away.
Gilr i agree wiyh ur mom & trey u need to talk bout it, the more u talk the better u'll feel..Glad 2 c ur up & about, it's sweet how trey push back his work so he can stay with u,he's a keeper girl.. Kids will b kids so go enjoy ur cruise & ur man girl..
that damn lil kid this reminds me when I fell down the steps and I had a scar on my face but everyone and school thought I got beat up by a damn boyfriend. So I know how Shanell feels about her scar.
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Yeah the kids are excited.
Im sure.
So when do you guys plan on tying the knot and having a family?
I dont know but I can definitely tell you its no time soon.
Why not I think youd make a great mom.
Were not ready for that yet Trey is barely home as it is Im just really starting my career its just not a good time right now for either one of us.
Yeah I said the same thing and popped up pregnant.
Well trust me aint nothing popping up outta here unless its my man after his errection done fizzled.
Ok your saying too much now I think Shanell is getting her groove back.
I feel good. Its been a while since I could just smile you know.
Child voice Mommy whats that thing on that ladies face.
Passenger Jaden its not polite to point and say things like that here finish looking at your book.
Just like that I was taken down a notch. I know little kids have no fear and they question what they dont know, so I cant hold it against them. I didnt get upset but it did get to me. I continued to smile and went back to looking out the window after I put my shades on. For some reason they gave me a hidden comfort.
We finally boarded the ship and it looks like Ill be checked in before Trey. We had a deluxe suite. It was beautiful. I walked in the room to a snake on our bed made out of towels. I got all worked up like a little kid when I saw it. I continued looking around and noticed the sliding widows that led out to our balcony. It let in so much light. The scenery was breath taking from the clear blue skies to the Aqua blue ocean. It was astounding. I put my bags over by the bed and stood out there for a minute. I was so thankful that Bill picked me to do this because this was exactly what I needed. I decided to go look around and also say hello to my mom to kill some time.
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Have you had anymore nightmares?
Maybe a few
Baby
Trey please
Ok Ill leave dat alone I gotta go anyway call me later.
Ok bye baby.
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The day had finally come for us to leave for the cruise. Trey was on a flight with his team since it was business and I was on a flight with Lynn to Miami. Evan and Marcus got to have some time off since I would be with Trey. I didnt get to fly with my boo, but I did get to be flown by my dad. I was happy to see him. I felt like I hadnt seen him in ages. He never did like El. My daddy cried when he found out what El did to me. Hes a sensitive man but a strong loving man. Im his only child and he has always spoiled me. He loves Trey. He really likes the fact that when Trey is in town and hes home they come together and watch sports with one another. My dad gets to have another male around instead always being out numbered by females. We only got to chat for a brief moment before boarding the plane. He told me to tell my mom that he loves her when I saw her. That was another good thing about this trip. I was going to be cruising with my mom. I know shell be working but shell still be around for me to talk to her. Treys family is coming too. Were gonna have so much fun. This is one working vacation that me and Trey could use. I miss him so much. I havent seen him since he left me. Hes been so busy that our time together since the incident has been non-existent. I knew that was to be expected especially since he extended his stay with me. But Ill get to have some down time now with my baby and I cant wait. All I did was think about the many ways that I was going to violate him while I sat in my window seat. Lynn caught me smiling.
Shanell what got you all smiles over there?
Just thinking about my baby.
It figures I dont know why I asked. I wish Richard couldve came.
Aw, I bet you do.
Its fine tho were taking a family cruise next year anyway.
Oh thats nice.
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what better way to get more clients featured in our magazine if you were to go.
But why me I mean Im just getting back dont you need me here?
We could use you here but this is more pressing at the moment. We figured you and Lynn could go work your magic and bring us back some more big fish and a small part of me wants you to go to give you a nice escape for a bit maybe relieve some of that stress youve been through a lot kiddo.
Wow I dont know what to say.
I take that as a yes?
Of course thank you for the opportunity I wont dissappoint.
Great ok, sorry I interrupted your phone call tell my main my Trey I said hello.
I will Bill thanks again. I called Trey back.
Baby I guess Ill be able to go on that cruise after all.
You was able to get more time off?
No they actually have me working too.
Ahhh yeah I get to spend some more time wit my baby.
Its gonna be so fun we get to relax while we work.
Yeah you know I like to work we gone be puttin in a lotta hard work.
You so nasty.
As fuck!
laughs So give me a heads up whos else in on board ooo you get it, on board Trey laughs at my cornyness.
I ont know baby I just signed on if I find out anymore Ill let you know.
Good cause that will give me a heads up on how to critigue my pitch Im so excited babe.
I can tell its been a minute since I heard you being this happy.
Trey I know these past weeks or month in a half Ive been really hard to deal with. I just wanna say thank you baby for being here and never giving up on me when I tried so many times to push you away.
Baby I love you I told you I aint goin nowhere.
I know you did Im just dealing with a lot and I have to admit that Im more vulnerable and insecure when it comes to you. Ive never been this way before and as much as I try not to let things get to me, it does
Well you know I agree wit ya mom I think you need to talk to somebody
Trey youre messing up my positive vibe I got going on.
Aww I like how u set dat up!!
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Having those two around me wasnt as bad as I thought it was gonna be. Theyre really nice men but if you cross the line they will hurt you. Ive seen them go to work on a few people whove tried to get close to me theyre no joke. I really do feel safe with them. Part of me regrets not having security when Trey first asked. Maybe none of this wouldve never happened. We may not have ever split up and maybe I wouldve been protected from El. I guess theres no need in dwelling on that now whats done is done. I hope he rots in jail for what hes done to me. Ive never hated anyone in my life but I hate him. I would never let Trey know my true emotions about El because I really believe he would kill him. I see something in Trey that wasnt there before. Like he has this score to settle and hes determined to make good on it. He thinks I dont be paying attention when he says certain things to people in code so to speak but I do. I mean I dont know what it means, but Im sure it means something. I hope whatever this is he gets it out of his system and realize that El isnt worth the energy or going to jail for.
Im sitting at my desk when Trey calls me.
Baby how would feel about going on a cruise.
Trey I dont know baby. I just got back to work I cant leave how are you able to go on cruise right now anyway?
Well Ill be working its a Celebrity Fun Fest that Royal Caribbean is having a lot of the celebrities will be there doing a benefit for HIV/AIDS Ive been asked to perform and I wanna support the cause
Knock! Knock! Knock!
Hold on baby come in!
Shanell sorry to interrupt but we have an assignment for you that we thought youd enjoy.
Really hold on Bill Baby let me call you back Bill needs to talk to me.
Ight love you baby.
I love you too puts down cell phone Ok whats up?
Royal Carribbean is sponsoring a Celebrity Fun Fest I couldnt believe what I was hearing
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They make me feel like Im damaged goods or something. Like Im not worthy to be with Trey. Its really hurtful. My hair for the most part can hide it some, but certain ways I might turn my head or when the wind blows its noticeable. Trey tells me all the time not listen to that negative feedback well Im putting it nicely he says bullshit, but its hard not too. I mean for the most part his fans have been supportive, which really surprised me and that makes me feel good.
Some of them have really reached out and let me know that they were glad I was going to be ok. My mom feels like I should talk to a councelor because that experience was so traumatic, but I dont wanna talk about it at all at least not yet. Im making strides though, before I wouldnt even come out of my condo. At least now Ill go to the store and run my little errands instead of asking Trey to handle it for me or my mom. I missed out on my Nelly interview since I had been out of work. Lynn did it for me. I wanted to meet him so bad. Ive always liked Nelly. I think it was for the best, because now that I have this scar on my face its made me very self-conscious. I probably wouldve been thinking he was looking at the scar and not just giving me eye contact. Ill be going back to work soon and in a way I cant wait. I miss it but part of me can wait, because Im not ready for the stares.
Me and my mom decided to go out to breakfast. I usually wouldnt sit out in public so this is a huge step for me. Shell be going back to work soon so she wanted us to hang out before she leaves. We decided to go to IHOP. My two bodyguards Evan and Marcus ate with us as well. It was peaceful for the most part Treys fans wanted to give me things to give to him. Some of them even had something for me. I was touched. I had to tell Evan and Marcus it was ok for them to give it too me. They checked it thoroughly before they handed it to me.
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We Should Be
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Its been six weeks since the incident. Ive been shown so much love and support from my co-workers, family and friends. Treys mom has visited me. Shes called to check on me telling me to be encouraged and letting me know if there is anything that she could do or anytime I wanted to talk she was here for me. I just loved his mom. No matter what was going on with me and Trey she never treated me any differently. Always showed me love. She was happy when she found out that we were seeing each other again. She said whatever made her baby happy made her happy.
My mom has been here with me for a while taking care of my wound, making sure its healing properly. I hated the fact that she had to come home to hear some bad news about me. I put my house up for rent and have been staying in a condo. I couldnt go back there and stay. It was too painfull. I really loved my house too, but I loved my sanity more which I was slowly losing. My mom has been a huge help to me since shes been here. She came the day Trey left. He had to go shoot videos for a few collaborations that hes on. Hes been wonderful these past couple of weeks. He had some things rescheduled just so he could be here with me a little longer. Hes been my own personal bodyguard. I try to tell him to relax but since the incident thats not happening. Hes been so protective of me. Now that hes back working he has security with me and Ive accepted it. Im definitely well known now and the paparazzi has been relentless.
Its really been hard these past few weeks trying to recover from what happened. I have nightmares every so often about it. I look at this slash on my face everyday and still cry. It bothers me the way people stare at me now. Oh and the haters are so cruel. The women that hate the fact that Trey has a girl, call me names all the time. Im known as scar, zipper face, misses slash, I mean theyve made up all kinds of names for me.
I just cried :(
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