Passion Pain & Pleasure
“OH MY GOD! HOW DID I GET THIS BLOOD ON ME?” I screamed. Trey held me.
“Baby are you okay?”
“I don’t know. What’s going on Trey? Am I bleeding? Have I been shot?”
“No baby you’re gonna be fine. Now listen to me I want you to go to the house.” I see him laying there.
“Is he dead Trey? Is he…” Trey tried to calm me.
“Baby just listen and do what I said and go to the house.”
“No Trey! I’m not leaving you alone to deal with this.”
“Shanell I’m not asking you baby now go.”
“Oh my God! He’s dead isn’t he?” I was hysterical, an emotional wreck. Trey was telling me to go, but I couldn’t move. I was at a standstill frozen as I stared at El’s bloody body. Seconds later Buggzi and Marcus appeared. They shockingly saw El’s body laying there. They looked at me and Trey and noticed the blood on our clothes. Then moments later my dad came out of nowhere or maybe he was there with them. I didn’t really know. Everything just seemed like it was moving so fast. Then his brother Frank came rushing in. They noticed Trey who was now kneeling down beside El’s body and the gun on the side of him. Buggzi turns to Trey.
“Trey man you need to get out of here.” My dad and Trey looked at each other. My dad agreed.
“He’s right. Take Shanell out of here too. We’ll handle this. You two go!” Marcus tried to escort Trey out.
“Wait a minute. I just wanna make sure this mofucker dead.” Trey checked to see if he could feel a pulse. There was nothing. “May you rest in as much peace as you gave mofucker.” Marcus helped Trey up.
“Come on man we gotta hurry up and get ya’ll two out of here.” My uncle Frank tells me and Trey to come with him to the house first, so we can clean ourselves up. We leave with him while my dad and the others stay behind. Then Elliot came in. He saw the dead body lying on the floor in the stables. He looked petrified. He quickly walked over to it. He recognizes the face.
“That’s my son.” Then he looks around at my dad, Buggzi and Marcus. “Who killed my son!”
*******
weeks prior
Funny how time flies when you’re having fun. Me and Trey have been so happy and even more fulfilled since the births of Treyonna and Tremaine Jr. ...Trejay we call him. They are seven months now, growing stronger by the day and trying to get into everything. Not only did we have our hands full with them, but also the building of our new home. What a process to have to go through along with adjusting to being new parents. I’m glad that part of it is finally over and we will be moving in. I can’t wait. The home is so beautiful. It’s even bigger than this one but I love it. I was a bit apprehensive about the size because I barely was handling being in this one. Then the more we would go over and check on it’s progression and how everything started coming together the more excited I got about it. The lot size itself is huge. It’s 38,402 sq. ft. Trey had them build a playground for the twins, basketball courts, we have an outdoor whirlpool built into our in ground pool, bar and a barbeque pavilion. The house itself is 22,000 sq. ft.
Instead of having the guest house like before Trey had them build an attached guest/staff wing with separate entrances so the nanny and bodyguards could now have there own personal space. The house also was guard gated so no one could come on the premises without being let in. There were security cameras every where. Trey knew El was still on the loose and didn’t want to take any chances. We had a lot of land so he wanted to be prepared. The house is very spacious. Including the rooms for the bodyguards we had a total of eleven bedrooms and twelve baths. The house came with a home theater, game room, studio and a gym. A few new features added to it that we didn’t have in the old house were an elevator, wine cellar and a complete spa room. I mean Trey went all out when he had this house built. I couldn‘t believe it. What fun it’s going to be keeping up with the twins now.
*******
Trey and I have been in our new home for two weeks now. I remember on our first night here after I had put the twins down for bed. Trey had a candle lit night cap waiting for me in the bedroom over in our sitting area. The first thing I noticed were the candles. They
illuminated the room and set such a romantic tone. Sitting on the small coffee table were two strawberry tarts with whipped cream accompanied with some sparkling cider. I wasn’t drinking any alcohol yet since I was nursing so that was my drink of choice while Trey had a stash of champagne on the side of his seat. I loved how romantic he could be at times and this I didn’t even see coming.
He told me he wanted to do this to show how much he appreciates me and everything that I do while he’s on the road. During most of this process he was away promoting his latest album “Passion Pain and Pleasure” so a lot of the decision making was on me. Sometimes conference calls were necessary because there were some things that he needed to handle but other than that I called the shots. He said he knows the wedding has been taking a back seat to a lot of unfortunate things and now that we’re in our home he wants us to take this time right now to pick a date. I didn’t even notice the small calendar that was sitting there. I was so blown away by everything else that I didn’t even pay any attention to it. But that wasn’t all he had in store. Then he took out a small jewelry box and handed it to me.
“Open it.” Trey sat down in the chair and watched me as I opened the pretty blue box. My mouth was on the floor. It was a beautiful sterling heart shaped locket and chain. I was speechless. It had the words I love you engraved on the outside of it. Then when I opened it, it had a picture of Treyonna and Trejay on each side. I instantly had tears in my eyes. I couldn’t believe he found the time to do this. He knew he was going to be rewarded for this act tonight. I walked around the table and sat on his lap. I leaned into him and kissed his soft lips gently, slowly savoring them.
“You are so good to me you know that?”
“Cause I love you.”
“I love you too…baby thank you.”
“You’re welcome. Here lemme put it on for you.” I turned a little so Trey could slip it on my neck. I couldn’t stop touching it. I really loved it.
“Trey if you’re doing this because you think I may be feeling a certain way because we haven’t gotten married yet baby I don’t.”
“No. I’m not doing it because of that at all. Listen to me, when I asked you to be my wife it’s because it’s what I want. I’m just ready to make us a complete family.”
“I already feel like I’m your wife Mr. Neverson. In every aspect of the word and I can’t wait to make it official.” We kiss each other once more and then I pick up one of the tarts and feed it amongst the two of us as I sit on his lap. We made a toast to each other, ate a little more and then started looking over the calendar and discussing what all Trey had coming up. We currently were in the month of June so we decided on August 2nd of the following year which would give us plenty of time to plan. Plus that’s when Trey would have a window of time freed up to be around for rehearsals and travel for our honey moon.
“Oh babe you know we have my mom and dads anniversary celebration to go to next weekend.”
“Yeah I know. We staying from Friday to Monday right?”
“Yeah…is that still ok with you?”
“Oh nah it’s cool baby I was just making sure. So who gone be with Treyonna and Trejay while we‘re at the dinner?”
“Trey you know my parents are going to want them there.”
“I don’t know about that Shanell. I mean people are gonna be drinkin n’ shit. We can’t have them around that.”
“I thought about that too along with the fact that we’re going to be out late.”
“They’ll understand if we don’t bring ‘em.”
“Wait Trey are you talking about not taking them at all?”
“No, just not at the party baby.”
“I guess I’ll have to ask Mrs. Vanessa to go with us then. I just hate to ask her to come when we really only need her for that one night plus I told her she could have off since we‘d be gone.”
“She don’t mind being with them.”
“I know…” Suddenly we hear Trejay crying through the baby monitor. Trey gets up.
“I’ll go get him.”
“Ok.” While Trey went to go check on him I went ahead and cleaned up the glasses and left over dessert that was sitting on the table. I blew out all the candles and took everything down to the kitchen. When I walked in there Mrs. Vanessa was there. She’s the twins nanny. I really needed some additional help with them so me and Trey looked into having someone assist with that. Mrs. Vanessa has been with us since the twins were six weeks old. She’s been great too. I remember when Trey and I first saw her. We were so thrown by her uncanny likeness to Monique from “The Monique Show” and “The Parkers.” She’s not as big as her but man her looks resemble her so much. Her personality is not as big either but she’s the sweetest lady with the biggest heart. She’s forty years of age, a widow and has never had any children but she’s been a nanny for years and considers all the families she’s assisted with like her own. She was unloading the dishwasher.
“Hey Mrs. Vanessa.”
“Hey there baby!” She notices the dishes in my hand. “Oh let me take that for you.”
“I got it Mrs. Vanessa thank you. You go ahead and finish what you were doing.”
“Is that a new piece of jewelry I see around your neck?” I touch it and smile.
“It is.” I walk a little closer to Mrs. Vanessa and show it to her.
“Aw look at my babies. That’s an exquisite piece of jewelry you got there Shanell. That man got a good eye for the finer things that’s for sure.”
“I know. That’s why he spotted me.” That made Mrs. Vanessa laugh.
“Speak it miss lady. I heard that! My babies still sleeping?”
“Well Trejay was just fussing so Trey’s with him right now. Hopefully he didn’t wake Treyonna.”
“She seems to sleep pretty good when he’s up even if he is making a lot of noise.”
“Yeah but she can have her moments though.”
“I know it.”
“Mrs. Vanessa would you mind accompanying me and Trey next weekend to Atlanta. We decided not to bring the babies to my parents anniversary party. It would really mean a lot to us if you could come. I know you were given time off which you still will get…”
“Oh chile you know I don’t have a problem taking care of those two.”
“I know. I just feel bad since I gave you the weekend off and I hate to inconvenience you by needing you now.”
“It’s not an inconvenience and it‘s no problem at all.”
“Ok great. Thank you Mrs. Vanessa.”
“You’re welcome. Did you need anything done before I head on back to my room?”
“Nope! You go ahead and enjoy the rest of your night.”
“I will. I gotta date with my soaps. Tell Trey I said goodnight and I’ll see you two in the morning.”
“Ok.” Mrs. Vanessa leaves out of the kitchen. I finish up the little bit of dishes that we had and then head back up to the bedroom. I noticed Trey was back in the room on the terrace walking around with Trejay putting him back to sleep. It was a beautiful night out. Trejay was so spoiled. He is such a character for seven months. He demands so much attention already. Everyone says he looks just like me with Treys energetic personality and Treyonna looks like Trey. I walked over to Trey and snuck a kiss on Trejay’s cheek as he laid his head on Trey’s shoulder.
“Where mine at?”
“Oh don’t worry daddy. I’ll take care of you once you come to bed.” I left Trey alone with his son and went and got in the shower. Meanwhile Trey went and put Trejay back in his crib. As soon as he left out the twins room his phone rang.
“Yo man why you keep calling my phone?”
“Trey you know I have no issues with you. I’m only doing as my sister asked and she really needs you to make a visit. This time she told me to tell you and these are her words not mine, that if you don’t want your sex life suddenly leaked to the public then you need to come see her.”
“Fuck she mean!”
“I don’t know.”
“She making threats now?”
“Look that’s what she told me to tell you. Believe it or not I’m tired of going back and forth trying to get you to see her my damn self. But it is my sister so I’m sure you can understand my plight.”
“Nah I don’t, cause not too long ago you was blackmailing her ass.”
“That was before I knew how deep seeded her issues were.”
“Lemme get a pen and some paper and take down her information…hold on.” Trey went to find something to write on and with. “Alright where she at?” Summer gave him all the details and then they hung up. I was coming out of the bathroom in my towel and noticed Trey looking at a piece of paper.
"Baby what's that?"
“I just got a call from Summer again. She said Autumn wants me to come see her.”
“Autumns been wanting you to come see her for a while now. What’s so new about that?”
“Now it seems like she tryna make a threat.”
“By saying what?”
"It sound like she tryna start some bullshit with that DVD of the two of us."
“I am so tired of this! Trey when is it gonna end?” Trey tries to calm me.
“Look everything gone be alright ok? I think this time I‘ma go see her doe.” All I could do was shake my head instantly irritated. “Baby I know you don’t like the idea of me going but it’s the only way to possibly squash this.”
“Well I’m going with you then.” Trey cut his eyes at me like I said something offensive.
“No. I don’t want you going no where near her.”
“I think if would be good for me to see her Trey. She tried to kill me! I have yet to express any of my feelings about that to her, Crystal and Nikki.”
“I’m not letting you go see her. You hear me?” I couldn’t believe how adamant he was about it.
“Trey you should understand why I wanna talk to Autumn. Baby she’s behind bars it’s not like she can do anything to me. Why are you so set against me going?”
“After everything you’ve been through do you have to ask? Whatchu think I’m gonna be cool with the idea of you visiting her after all the shit she done did to you? Shanell her, Crystal and Nikki are the last people I want you around.”
“But Trey…”
“I don’t trust them baby. I don’t give a fuck about her being behind nobodies damn bars neither.”
“Trey I’m not gonna run away anymore. This is something that I need to do for me. I get that you only want to protect me but baby I’ve been thinking about this and I really do want to confront them.”
“Nah…you ain’t going.”
“Here we go again with you telling me what I can and cannot do.”
“You right. On this I am, so get what ever plans you had of making a visit out ya head because I‘m telling you no. Don’t think you gone pull some slick shit either…I mean it Shanell.” I stood by Trey with no words as I looked at him infuriated. His unwavering stance really was upsetting. I was so angry with him. I walked away and put my panties and tank top on to sleep in. He knew what time it was immediately.
“Oh so now you being like that?” I took the decorative pillows off the bed and aggressively put them in the chest. Trey stood there watching me as I went back and forth. Then he walks over to me and stands in front of me.
“So you just gone go to bed like dat and stay mad at me?” My eyes let him know that’s exactly what was about to happen. I walked away from him and turned out the light. He nodded his head.
“A‘ight.” Then he walks out the room. I got under the covers and laid there. All these thoughts entered my mind. How dare he feel like it’s ok for him to go see Autumn but I can’t. I don’t care what the circumstances are surrounding the visit. Him out of all people should know how important this is to me. He should want me to go if I feel it’s necessary. Oh he makes me sick sometimes. I don’t know Tremaine. You may just have to be mad with me on this one.
We never did come to an agreement that night. At least I never agreed. Damn this! I know what he said, but I’m going to make it a point to see Autumn, Crystal and Nikki. He’s not calling all the shots anymore. Shanell is back with a vengeance. I love you baby, but I’m doing things my way this time...
*******
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Autumn could now make her phone call for the night so she decided to call Summer to check on the things she asked of her.
“Oh good you are home. Well any luck?”
“I called Trey like you asked and gave him the information on where to come see you and about the recorded encounter of the two of you being shown.”
“Is he going to come?”
“Autumn I don’t know! Gosh! He didn’t say.”
“Ok well at least he knows. You still remember what I told you to do in case he doesn’t show up right?”
“Yes! I know. Why do I have to be put in the middle of your dirty work all the time. I’m tired of it.”
“Well had you not let him come in my room in the first place I wouldn’t be needing your help right now.”
“You’ve been needing my help way before now Autumn. I have covered for you time and time again plus been your scapegoat. Daddy doesn’t trust me now because of you, starting with the accident that you were in with his car and used my name and gave my license number. It was your company that was over the house and stole their lap top and you blamed it on my friends. You are a total bitch when it comes to me. Well now it’s your turn to see how using people for your own benefit feels. I changed my mind, I will not black male Trey for you with this taping. Find somebody else to do your dirty work.”
“Ugh! Summer! You can’t be serious! Don’t flake out on me now.”
“You’re the flake! Trying to kill someone over a man. My sister is a stupid bitch!”
“Bitch! You’re the one who’s been hiding the fact that she’s a lesbian from them afraid to admit it. I swear Summer if you don’t help me I will tell.”
“I don’t care! That’s nothing compared to the damage you have caused this family. You cost daddy his practice. Anything you say to him will be nothing compared to what you have done so tell him. I don’t care!”
Autumn started crying. She couldn’t believe her sister wasn’t going to help her out in this time of need.
*******
“So Nikki are you ever going to get out of here?”
“I don’t know Charmaine. Why can’t Trey understand that everything I did was because I love him. How is love crazy?”
“Nikki love isn’t what’s crazy. It’s your behavior.”
“Charmaine you know I’m not crazy but if it’s going to keep me from going to jail then they can classify me as a nut case all day long.”
“Nikki do you feel any regret for any of the things that you’ve done?”
“Yeah. I regret that it didn’t work and I still don’t have Trey. I have to try harder.”
“Nikki Trey is happy with Shanell. They have a family together now. You think you’re really able to come in between that?”
“Whose side are you on?”
“I’m on yours but…”
“Those are my babies!” she snapped. “She took my family! My life! I want it back!”
Charmaine felt sorry for her friend. She was thinking Nikki was in this state because of the loss of Angel. She had no idea how sick Nikki really was.
“Well girlfriend I hope you get better. I really miss you and I‘ll always be here for you.” Nikki looked insulted.
“Get better? I just told you Charmaine there ain’t nothing wrong with me. My lawyer seems to think I’m suffering from this Post Traumatic Stress thing along with these doctors, but I’m fine.”
“You’re in a damn mental institution still delusional about Trey. That’s not fine! Nikki there is a real reason why you’re here. You really do need help.” Nikki smiles at Charmaine.
“Not in the least. Don’t you see? Trey could’ve shot me in that cabin but he didn’t. Why? Because part of him still loves me. I’m not delusional about that at all. I’ll take my pills and be a good girl until the day comes when we meet up again. It‘s only a matter of time before I get my family back. Believe me Charmaine I will get my family back.”
*******
Paige had a visit to go see Crystal. She couldn’t believe the mess that her and Nikki caused Shanell and Trey. She wasn’t sure how she was going to act when she saw Crystal but she knew it was imperative that she saw her. When she arrived at the women’s correctional facility she checked in and had a seat. Once it was time they were taken back. She saw Crystal sitting at a table that was over by a small window so she went over to her. She gave her a hug and then had a seat.
“I didn’t think you were going to come.”
“I wasn’t sure if I was going to come this time either but I knew I was going to be seeing you. You know Crystal Shanell and Trey are my friends. You were my best friend. How could you do this to them?”
“So is this what this visit is going to be about? You criticizing me for the choices that I made? Believe me Paige if I had to do this over again I would. I never would have listened to El. I can’t even tell you why I did.”
“But you knew he was bad news. You knew that. I never knew you would do such cruel things and for what money? Money that you don’t even have. Do you honestly think that man was going to give you anything for helping him?”
“Like I said if I could do things over I would, but I can’t. I don’t need you holding me accountable when the judge has already saw to it that I will pay for what I've done.”
“Do you know that I feel responsible for this? I feel like if I would have never introduced Shanell to you that her life would be different. I can’t even face her or Trey because of it.”
“What about my life? I’m your best friend not her.”
“You were my best friend but no one who calls themselves my friend would ever torcher another human being who’s pregnant. Put her through hell because of the man that she is involved with and teams up with her ex just for money. I don’t want any friends like that.”
“Then why are you here?”
“To let you know that I don’t feel sorry for you not one bit. You deserve to be here and what ever sentence that was given to you. You need to also be thanking God that she didn’t lose those babies or her life.”
“I don’t need you to be judging me.”
“I know. You need me to pray for you and I will. You take care of yourself while you’re in here. It wouldn’t hurt too if you did a little praying yourself.” Then Paige winks at her and sat at an empty table till it was time to leave.
*******
Tomorrow we’ll be flying to Atlanta to be there for my parents anniversary party so today we’ve been packing getting ready to make this trip. I’m really excited about going home. My auntie Sharon is going to be there with Ricky and Raven. It’s gonna feel good to see everyone and have everyone see the twins. Myself and Mrs. Vanessa was in the twins room packing their things while Trey was in their toy room keeping them occupied. We heard the buzzer sound off letting us know someone was at the gate. Evan notified me of who it was before he let them enter. It was Lynn. She lives in the neighborhood too and had been telling me that she was going to come by once we were settled. I guess she decided to make it over today. I was surprised she wasn’t at work. I told Mrs. Vanessa I would be back and went downstairs to meet Lynn at the door. She was so excited.
“Hey girlfriend!”
“Hey!”
“Shanell this is beautiful. I can’t wait to see the rest of it.”
“Thank you. How come you’re not at work today?”
“Oh I was there. I took a half day today. You know our vacation starts tomorrow so I had some things I wanted to do before Richard, me and the kids left.”
“Oh yeah that’s right you guys are going on a cruise.”
“Yes girl. This vacation couldn’t get here fast enough.”
“Well let me show you around.”
“Where’s the twins?”
“They’re up in their toy room with Trey. We’ll see them when we go up there.” I showed Lynn the house downstairs and around outside first. Then we went upstairs and lastly I showed her the toy room where Trey was. When we went in there Trey was on the floor playing with the two of them while they were in their Exersaucers (stationary activity walkers). As soon as Trejay saw me he started acting like he wanted to cry and get out. Trey started talking to him.
“Aw boy cut that out…come on man…you was just cool…here play with this.” Trey pulled down a hanging bumble bee that was in front of him on the walker. Trejay got quiet for a minute as he looked at it. Then he looked back at me whining. I went and picked him up. He was happy after that.” Lynn starts laughing at Trey.
“Trey you looked like you were having more fun than they were. Reminiscing are we?”
“Ha ha very funny Lynn.” She starts laughing. “How you doin baby?”
“I’m wonderful. I love the house.”
“Thank you. I appreciate dat. How‘s my man Richard?”
“He’s good. He should be home right now actually.”
“You should tell him to come through. I gotta poker table in the basement waiting for him to get whipped up on. He needa come see me.”
“I don’t know about all that, my man is good, but I’ll let him know. Ok let me see miss onna…you mind Trey?”
“Nah go head.” Trey gets up off the floor first then Lynn picks up Treyonna. Trey walks over to me and talks to Trejay. “You gone stop all that whining boy. Daddy gotta toughen you up.” Trejay looks at Trey smiling. Trey plays with him in my arms making him laugh. Then he gives him a kiss on the mouth. “I gotta few more things to finalize for the tour so I’m bout to get dressed and I’ll be back a little later.”
“Ok babe.” Trey then gives me a kiss and leaves out the room. Suddenly he comes back.
“Hold up.” He takes Treyonna out of Lynn’s arms and plays with her in the air real quick Then he gives her a kiss and back to Lynn. “Alright I’ll be back…can‘t leave out my baby girl.” Lynn was looking at him steady smiling.
“He’s really good with them isn’t he?”
“The best.” We put the babies down and got on the floor to play with them as we talked. She brings up Nikki.
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Tapping my foot waiting on
Tapping my foot waiting on the next post.
Well I hope Trey does not act
Well I hope Trey does not act like an asshole when she explains what happened and why she hid it. He has a secret too it seems. I wonder what it is and how will Shanell accept it if he tells it.
Okay I just need to kick my
Okay I just need to kick my cousins ass next post
Wowww this is one big mess
Wowww this is one big mess Shanell keeps drama going on smh I wonder what Trey is gonna say and how is Shanell dad gonna feel about his wife finding out his secret??? ummm... (Waits For Next Post)........
Ooh girl,shanell u better
Ooh girl,shanell u better tell trey cause when he find out he's gonna go bananas.....girl i can't believe u keep this secret so long,mama knows best so listen to her
Oooooo, Shanell da ish bout
Oooooo, Shanell da ish bout to hit da fan once Trey finds out... Hope she tells him b4 sum1 else tells him. # (screamin) Shanell listen to ur momma gurl!!!!
Can't wait til the next post!
Can't wait til the next post!
Oh my I hope she do tell Trey
Oh my I hope she do tell Trey and I pray Trey understand and don't turn his back on her. I know he is going to be mad and hurt.
“I’m on your side. I’m always
“I’m on your side. I’m always on your side, but baby you don’t want to go into your marriage with secrets. You hated them being kept from you when Trey did it. You made him promise you not to keep secrets anymore. Do you think it’s fair that you ask this of him and you not do the same?” I got upset again.
“But mom, I’m scared.” I cried. “I don’t know what Trey is going to think or even act once he hears this. I don’t want to lose him.” I literally had a meltdown. My mom wrapped me in her arms. She was crying too. We cried together being each other’s shoulder. I know she was hurt about my father keeping this a secret from her too. I felt horrible for putting him in that position back then, but I knew my daddy would do anything for me, so I used that to my advantage. I think about that now and I feel so guilty for it, only because of my mom. My choice forced my dad to make a choice and now the choice he’s made has come back and hurt my mom. She was right. Life is funny and as afraid as I am to tell Trey this news I’m gonna have to do it and live with the consequences. I just hope I’m living with them with Trey in my life than not.
“Baby why won’t you just tell
“Baby why won’t you just tell him. El is dead now. He can’t hurt you anymore or even cause any harm to your child.”
“Trey has enough on his mind to deal with. He doesn’t need to know this too. I mean why should I tell him mom? I don’t have the child. She’s not with me or knows anything about me. I made it clear that I didn’t want any contact with her, so what does he need to know for?”
“Shanell listen to me. Things happen baby. Take Trejay for instance. What if he ends up meeting her and dating her years from now and doesn’t even know it’s his sister.”
“Come on now mom you’re reaching here. That’s not gonna happen.”
“Tell me that it can’t happen…tell me Shanell. Don’t give the excuse about the age difference either because nowadays that’s not an issue.”
“Why do you always do this to me?”
“Sweetheart because I love you. I don’t want you to ruin what you have with Trey due to secrets.”
“So you’re not going to let this secret come between you and daddy?”
“Look, we’re not talking about me and your father right now. I’m talking about you. I understand all your reasons for thinking Trey shouldn’t know, but Shanell life is funny. I never knew I’d be standing here finding out that I have a grandbaby; other than the two I know about, along with your father knowing about it and hiding it from me. You never knew that in your future this secret was gonna be exposed, but look at what life’s choices brought you. Don’t keep this a secret from Trey, Shanell. Haven’t you had enough of that by now? He needs to know and one day so will Treyonna and Trejay.”
“I can’t tell him mom!”
“Shanell you have to! This is serious! Trey deserves to know and I won’t stand by this time and allow you not to say anything.”
“Whose side are you on?”
“As long as El lived no one
“As long as El lived no one was going to know about her. I had to protect her mom. If El knew about her he would’ve tried to use her to get to me. He didn’t deserve to be a father. Do you think he cared about my well-being when he held me captive in that cabin knowing that I was pregnant? All he cared about was getting money. That’s all he’s ever cared about. There was no way I wanted him anywhere near her and if I had to keep her non-existent for that to happen than that’s what it was gonna be.”
“I can’t believe I have another grandbaby. I’ve been a grand mom all these years and didn’t even know it, but your father knew.”
“Mommy please know that I never did this with the intention to hurt you. I had to protect my baby.”
“She’s not a baby anymore now is she Shanell?”
“No mom she’s not. She’s seven years old.”
“How do you know that she’s alright? That whomever has her has given her a good life and that she’s even still alive?”
“I don’t know. I try not to think about that at all. I just have to believe that the adoption agency that daddy found was a good one. But in my heart I know she’s alive.”
“You don’t even miss her? Or even curious about her at all?”
“In the beginning yes. I thought about her all the time, but that’s why I never saw her because that would make her more real to me and I couldn’t handle that. Then after some time I made myself not think about her anymore. I knew what I did was for the best and El would never be able to hurt her and use her.”
“Are you still planning on keeping this secret from Trey?”
“Yes mom I am. He doesn’t need to know.”
“Shanell, El’s mother is on the war path. If she gets even close to finding out the truth about her having a grandchild out there she is going to try to come after you for some answers.”
“I know. That’s why I’m going to go see her.”
“Oh no…no you’re not!” My mom said emphatically.
“Mom I have to. I have to take care of this now before Trey finds out or starts hearing things.”
“Please don’t let this come
“Please don’t let this come between you and daddy. He wanted you to know, but I didn’t. I didn’t want anyone to know. I begged and pleaded with him not to tell. I just wanted it to go away.”
“But Shanell you should’ve known you could come to me about anything. I’m always here for you. Why didn’t you know that?”
“I just didn’t okay! I was ashamed. The only thing that made any sense to me was keeping her a secret.”
“It’s a baby girl?”
“Yes.”
“When did you have the baby Shanell?”
“She was born April 26th the day after you went on your trip to Australia.”
“I don’t believe it…I don’t freak'n believe it! Bruce never said one word about anything when I had gotten back. As a matter of fact you weren’t even here once I returned. You were over Sharon’s your dad said. DID SHE KNOW?” she yelled.
“No. She just thought I was there to recuperate from being sick because you were out of town and daddy was working. Daddy told her he would feel so much better if she could look after me. He didn’t want me to be alone after having the baby. It was around spring break so she didn’t think anything of it.”
“So you had the baby and your father took care of the adoption side of it?” I shook my head yes. “How’d you do it without the father’s consent?”
“I forged El’s signature.”
“Oh dear God.”
“Mommy I had too! If he knew he had a baby my life would’ve really been over. I couldn’t let him know.”
“Well then how could he had found out about it now Shanell?”
“I don’t know!”
“I…I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what to say about any of this. Here I am thinking this woman on my step is as looney as her son when it’s my family that’s been keeping all the secrets.”
“Mommy I’m sorry for not telling you. No one was supposed to know. It wasn’t supposed to get out.”
“Shanell what about Trey? You actually were planning on keeping this secret from him too?” I wiped my eyes and changed my tone.
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“How?”
“I didn’t find out I was pregnant until El went to jail. After I was cleared El had been calling me to make a visit…”
“Shanell you were pregnant your junior year of high school?” I shook my head yes. “How could we have not known? I mean I know me and your father worked a lot, but how did we miss this?”
“I was afraid of what would’ve happened if you found out. I wasn’t going to have the baby at first. El had wanted me to also send him some money. He told me where he kept a stash of it and wanted me to bring some of it to him. I was going to take some of it and get an abortion. The more I thought about it I realized it was something that I couldn’t do even though I hated El. I was hoping that maybe I would end up losing the baby, but it never happened. The bigger I got I just wore baggie clothes and stayed in my room. Then one day daddy came home early and I didn’t know it. I had just walked in the kitchen to get something to drink and I wasn’t covered up.” Her eyes bugged out.
“YOUR FATHER KNEW???” She yelled.
“But mom it was purely by accident. I didn’t want you or daddy to know because of the hurt and disappointment that I was going to see all over your faces.” The tears continued to fall. “Just like the way you’re looking at me right now. Daddy looked at me like he didn’t even know me. That was the first time that I saw him cry like that. I let him down. I told him I didn’t want the baby, but I didn’t want to get an abortion. So he looked into having the baby put up for adoption.”
“So you both lied to me? TO MEEE???” she screamed.
“Mommy please, I’m begging you please try to understand. I was young and afraid. I didn’t know who I was gonna turn too. My spirit was broken down because of everything that I’d gone through with El. I had already put you and daddy through enough with that incident alone, then to have to tell you that I was pregnant, I couldn’t do it. Daddy wasn’t supposed to know, but he saw me. HE WASN’T SUPPOSED TO KNOOOWA!” I cried.
omg woooow!!! so where's the
omg woooow!!! so where's the baby??? how old is he/she now??? and omg! I can't believe shanell kept this baby a secret 4 so long. I can't believe sumbody else killed el though. sorry 2 be mean but that's good 4 his crazy ass. can't wait 4 the next part
Wowww but I figured it was
Wowww but I figured it was another child El ass was too crazy I guess that had a little to do with it smh Shanell always got some shit going on lol... Poor Trey hes gonna flip but Im sooo ready for it lol.. (Waits For Next Post) =)
Man,trey gon kill u giirl.
Man,trey gon kill u giirl..smh,why? So theirs another person want El dead
Evidently somebody else has a
Evidently somebody else has a reason to want EL dead. Why is the question.
OMG how you going to leave us
OMG how you going to leave us hanging like that! I can't wait till the next post Shanell needs to tell Trey before he finds out from someone else and that is going to really hurt him bad. I just hope he don't turn his back on her.
okay think I gotta an idea
okay think I gotta an idea what happen but gonna wait until you get done to see if I'm right
“We got some good news and
“We got some good news and some other news. The good news is the blood that they tested on our clothes turned out to be Treys only and the gun powder residue results came back inconclusive.”
“Oh sweetheart that’s great! Did he say what caused the results to have an inconclusive reading?”
“No, he didn’t and we didn’t bother to ask.”
“Well, its great news regardless.”
“I know, so right now they have no evidence against Trey and Mr. Warrington said they probably wouldn’t want to make a case against me because of my and El’s history. It could be proven that it was self-defense.”
“This is wonderful! Oh that brings me some much needed relief.”
“Me too.”
“Now Shanell we need to talk about this other issue. Why did you get so upset like that when I told you what El’s mother said? Besides the fact that it’s preposterous, what set you off like that? Am I missing something here?”
“Mom this isn’t an easy thing for me say to you right now…” My mom is real sensitive like me. When she heard me say those words she instantly had tears in her eyes.
“Then don’t! I don’t wanna know…” Now I had tears.
“Mommy please, I need to say this to you...”
“No Shanell…”
“Mommy please…” I begged. “El’s mom is not lying about a baby.” She puts the book down and starts shaking her head no, in disbelief. I took a big swallow afraid of the reaction I was about to get. I couldn’t even look at her.
“No…no…wait…this can’t be true…you’re telling me…wait…what exactly are you saying right now Shanell?” She yells. “WHAT ARE YOU SAYING?” I look at her.
“Mom I’m sorry!” She starts crying.
“SORRY! YOU’VE BEEN LYING TO ME AND YOUR FATHER?”
“Mom please let me explain!”
“How can you explain this? You had a baby Shanell before my grandbabies?”
“Yesss!” I whined. My mom cried some more. I knew I hurt her. I felt horrible. This has been the hardest secret for me to hold on to, but I had too. She looked at me wanting to understand.
“And Shanell, you still have
“And Shanell, you still have no recollection of the events that occurred after you blacked out?”
“No Mr. Warrington, I don’t. All I remember is waking up and seeing Trey beside El’s dead body. The gun was on the ground beside him. He rushed over and held me trying to calm me. I saw our bodyguards Marcus and Buggzi looking at the body and at Trey. Then I remember my dad being there, but I never saw him walk in. Everything is still a bit fuzzy at that point. I only know what Trey has told me.”
“Well, with their now being two guns missing it definitely doesn’t hurt the case it actually tells the police that there are more suspects that they need to be looking into. It basically takes all the focus away from Trey. Now Trey, with this new information as long as there’s no other evidence that could tie El’s murder to you, it’s gonna be pretty hard for them to charge you for it. But this is far from over. They’re going to keep digging until someone pays, but it’s my job to see to it that it’s not either one of you.”
“So what now Mr. Warrington?” Trey asked.
“For now you too are free to continue to live your lives. If anything changes or if anyone gets in contact with you don’t talk without me being present.”
“Yes sir.” Trey said. He shook Mr. Warrington’s hand. He had the biggest smile on his face. I was so happy to get this news. One huge hurdle down another big one to go. Trey dropped me off over my mom’s house. He and the guys were going to go celebrate the news. I know it was early, but Trey was too hype. He told me we’d get it in tonight. I kissed him goodbye and told him he better not come back to me drunk. I watched them pull off and then walked in the house. My mom was reading a book on the couch. I gave her a hug and kiss then sat down with her.
“How’d it go at the lawyers’ office?”
He closed his eyes and put
He closed his eyes and put his head back leaning it into my chest relaxing. I hovered over him and kissed his forehead.
“Come on baby let’s go to bed.” I took his hand, he got up and we called it a night. In the morning we called Mr. Warrington. He told us to come right over, so we did. Me and Trey took a seat in his office after everyone shook hands.
“So what is this news you have for us Mr. Warrington?” Trey asked.
“Well there’s been a few new developments. First the gun powder results came in.” Trey rubs his hands on his knees. I put my hand over his.
“What did they show?” I asked.
“They came back inconclusive.” I took a deep breath.
“So that’s it? Does it mean they can’t prove Trey shot him?”
“Not from the test they can’t. Also the results from the blood that was tested on the
clothes came back. They found it belonged to Trey only.”
“Yes!” I said.
“Well…” he continued but I cut him off.
“Then maybe the person that did it is the one that took the gun? This is good news right?”
“Baby relax and let Mr. Warrington finish explaining things.”
“El was shot more than once and it wasn’t with the same weapon. That gun seems to be missing too.”
“Wait! That doesn’t make any sense. Me and Trey were the only ones there at first. Right Trey?” I ask looking at him.
“Trey is there anything you may have forgot to mention. Maybe it slipped your mind with everything that happened that night. Now you said Shanell had the gun and you tried to coax her into giving it to you. Was that the same gun that El had on him?”
“Yeah, the same gun. I don’t know anything about another gun.”
“Well, from the autopsy report he was killed by another gun. There were two bullet wounds that were completely different. Are you sure you saw no one else there that shot him too?”
“No, but I know he was dead before we walked out of there to get cleaned up.” Mr. Warrington still didn’t look convinced it seemed of Trey’s story, but he let it go.
I meant to find out what he
I meant to find out what he needed to speak to him about but it slipped my mind since Trey continued to talk. It was really starting to bother him that he had to be away right now, but what could he do. He had commitments that he wanted to keep and didn’t want nothing negative to stop him from continuing to take care of his family. Trey actually Ustreamed from the hotel that night to say hello to his fans and check in with them. Of course they were concerned because word was out about El and they also found out he was hospitalized even though he was released. I’m glad there was nothing out about his stay for the night in jail. I don’t know how that happened, but none the less relieved. While he was talking to his fans I called Mrs. Vanessa to check on the twins. She said Treyonna was sleeping and Trejay was up playing with his baby toys on his activity seat. She was trying to get him to say something to me in the phone, but she said he was just looking at it trying to touch it. I told her to kiss them for me and Trey and then I said goodnight. Trey was finishing up his conversation with his fans, so I just sat in the cut and watched him as he told them that he loved them and blew them a kiss before he signed off. People ask me all the time how can I share Trey with the world knowing how much he is loved and wanted by so many women. It’s not easy at all, but his fans love is important to him and it too makes him happy. Because I love him, I love to see him happy, plus I know he loves me and I hold his heart. God knows I hope that never changes. Besides, the one side I don’t have to share that they don’t get to see or have is Tremaine. That part of him is only reserved for me and knowing that makes it a lot easier to share. So to hell with El’s family because I will not lose another thing without a fight. Trey sat at the desk for minute in silence. I knew he had a lot on his mind. I walked over to him and started massaging his shoulders.
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Trey, myself, Buggzi and Marcus all flew back to Atlanta so we could meet with the attorney. After this trip Trey would be leaving me to promo for the OMG Tour with Usher. I don’t know how my baby does it. He takes on so much and tries to carry the weight of the world on his back rather than have me share the load with him. I worry about Trey just as much if not more than he worries about me. This whole ordeal with El, and Autumn couldn’t be happening at the worst time. Not that anytime in our lives would have been better, but with him touring right now it’s an added stress that Trey doesn’t need. If I can help it El’s mother won’t be an added stress either. I will not let her nowhere near my child or have Trey finding out about this. He has enough to deal with because of my past, but this doesn’t have to be one of them. I just hope this news from the attorney is not something that’s going to hinder him traveling period. I know performing is Trey’s outlet and as bad as I don’t want him to leave I know he needs this. Plus it will give me some time to take care of this issue with El’s mother. In the meantime mom April will be staying at the house, but she had to leave when we did to handle some business for the Angels with Heart Foundation. She’ll be back in a few days. Evan stayed behind with Mrs. Vanessa and the twins. I really didn’t like being away from my babies. I see how Trey feels and he’s away from them more than I am. Once we got in town it was at night time. We checked into our hotel rooms, ate and stayed in for the night. We decided to stay at a hotel because we didn’t want to impose on my parents again even though we knew it wouldn’t have been a problem. We mainly was hoping this was going to be a quick trip anyway so it wasn’t a big deal. I told Trey I wanted to stop by there since we were back in town. I was finally ready to talk to my mom. He was telling me he needed to talk to my dad. I told him he wasn’t home yet.
Well damn wonder whats this
Well damn wonder whats this news is about since they have to go right back to Alanta umm its not looking good at all.... I like the way Trey handled Autumn tho he is tired of all the bullshit Im glad he putting his foot down when it comes to these females, and she didnt have nothing to say when Trey told her to leak the tape lol. Im also glad Trey checked Shanell she needs to let some stuff go... Man Man Man the drama!!!!... Next post please!!!!
maybe el's crazy mother came
maybe el's crazy mother came in wit the papers about the secret child. hmmmm. idk. but I know trey and shanell need 2 stop hiding secrets and put everything out in the open
Oh Hell. This doesn't look
Oh Hell. This doesn't look good. I hope those hidden secrets don't impact the case. Whatever secrets Trey and Shanell have, they had better confess to one another and to that lawyer. If they don't get it together, Trey's will be literally protecting his azz in prison.
Trey, trey, trey, smdh.. U
Trey, trey, trey, smdh.. U Juss had 2 sleep with Miss Crazy, I know u didn't remember but dang trey u stay up in trouble.. Can we plzzz get some answer bout this mystery child...
when she gonna tell where
when she gonna tell where this damn mysterious cousin of mines is
I want some answers about
I want some answers about this child!!! I don't care about Autumns crazy behind!!!
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