Passion Pain & Pleasure
“OH MY GOD! HOW DID I GET THIS BLOOD ON ME?” I screamed. Trey held me.
“Baby are you okay?”
“I don’t know. What’s going on Trey? Am I bleeding? Have I been shot?”
“No baby you’re gonna be fine. Now listen to me I want you to go to the house.” I see him laying there.
“Is he dead Trey? Is he…” Trey tried to calm me.
“Baby just listen and do what I said and go to the house.”
“No Trey! I’m not leaving you alone to deal with this.”
“Shanell I’m not asking you baby now go.”
“Oh my God! He’s dead isn’t he?” I was hysterical, an emotional wreck. Trey was telling me to go, but I couldn’t move. I was at a standstill frozen as I stared at El’s bloody body. Seconds later Buggzi and Marcus appeared. They shockingly saw El’s body laying there. They looked at me and Trey and noticed the blood on our clothes. Then moments later my dad came out of nowhere or maybe he was there with them. I didn’t really know. Everything just seemed like it was moving so fast. Then his brother Frank came rushing in. They noticed Trey who was now kneeling down beside El’s body and the gun on the side of him. Buggzi turns to Trey.
“Trey man you need to get out of here.” My dad and Trey looked at each other. My dad agreed.
“He’s right. Take Shanell out of here too. We’ll handle this. You two go!” Marcus tried to escort Trey out.
“Wait a minute. I just wanna make sure this mofucker dead.” Trey checked to see if he could feel a pulse. There was nothing. “May you rest in as much peace as you gave mofucker.” Marcus helped Trey up.
“Come on man we gotta hurry up and get ya’ll two out of here.” My uncle Frank tells me and Trey to come with him to the house first, so we can clean ourselves up. We leave with him while my dad and the others stay behind. Then Elliot came in. He saw the dead body lying on the floor in the stables. He looked petrified. He quickly walked over to it. He recognizes the face.
“That’s my son.” Then he looks around at my dad, Buggzi and Marcus. “Who killed my son!”
Funny how time flies when you’re having fun. Me and Trey have been so happy and even more fulfilled since the births of Treyonna and Tremaine Jr. ...Trejay we call him. They are seven months now, growing stronger by the day and trying to get into everything. Not only did we have our hands full with them, but also the building of our new home. What a process to have to go through along with adjusting to being new parents. I’m glad that part of it is finally over and we will be moving in. I can’t wait. The home is so beautiful. It’s even bigger than this one but I love it. I was a bit apprehensive about the size because I barely was handling being in this one. Then the more we would go over and check on it’s progression and how everything started coming together the more excited I got about it. The lot size itself is huge. It’s 38,402 sq. ft. Trey had them build a playground for the twins, basketball courts, we have an outdoor whirlpool built into our in ground pool, bar and a barbeque pavilion. The house itself is 22,000 sq. ft.
Instead of having the guest house like before Trey had them build an attached guest/staff wing with separate entrances so the nanny and bodyguards could now have there own personal space. The house also was guard gated so no one could come on the premises without being let in. There were security cameras every where. Trey knew El was still on the loose and didn’t want to take any chances. We had a lot of land so he wanted to be prepared. The house is very spacious. Including the rooms for the bodyguards we had a total of eleven bedrooms and twelve baths. The house came with a home theater, game room, studio and a gym. A few new features added to it that we didn’t have in the old house were an elevator, wine cellar and a complete spa room. I mean Trey went all out when he had this house built. I couldn‘t believe it. What fun it’s going to be keeping up with the twins now.
Trey and I have been in our new home for two weeks now. I remember on our first night here after I had put the twins down for bed. Trey had a candle lit night cap waiting for me in the bedroom over in our sitting area. The first thing I noticed were the candles. They
illuminated the room and set such a romantic tone. Sitting on the small coffee table were two strawberry tarts with whipped cream accompanied with some sparkling cider. I wasn’t drinking any alcohol yet since I was nursing so that was my drink of choice while Trey had a stash of champagne on the side of his seat. I loved how romantic he could be at times and this I didn’t even see coming.
He told me he wanted to do this to show how much he appreciates me and everything that I do while he’s on the road. During most of this process he was away promoting his latest album “Passion Pain and Pleasure” so a lot of the decision making was on me. Sometimes conference calls were necessary because there were some things that he needed to handle but other than that I called the shots. He said he knows the wedding has been taking a back seat to a lot of unfortunate things and now that we’re in our home he wants us to take this time right now to pick a date. I didn’t even notice the small calendar that was sitting there. I was so blown away by everything else that I didn’t even pay any attention to it. But that wasn’t all he had in store. Then he took out a small jewelry box and handed it to me.
“Open it.” Trey sat down in the chair and watched me as I opened the pretty blue box. My mouth was on the floor. It was a beautiful sterling heart shaped locket and chain. I was speechless. It had the words I love you engraved on the outside of it. Then when I opened it, it had a picture of Treyonna and Trejay on each side. I instantly had tears in my eyes. I couldn’t believe he found the time to do this. He knew he was going to be rewarded for this act tonight. I walked around the table and sat on his lap. I leaned into him and kissed his soft lips gently, slowly savoring them.
“You are so good to me you know that?”
“Cause I love you.”
“I love you too…baby thank you.”
“You’re welcome. Here lemme put it on for you.” I turned a little so Trey could slip it on my neck. I couldn’t stop touching it. I really loved it.
“Trey if you’re doing this because you think I may be feeling a certain way because we haven’t gotten married yet baby I don’t.”
“No. I’m not doing it because of that at all. Listen to me, when I asked you to be my wife it’s because it’s what I want. I’m just ready to make us a complete family.”
“I already feel like I’m your wife Mr. Neverson. In every aspect of the word and I can’t wait to make it official.” We kiss each other once more and then I pick up one of the tarts and feed it amongst the two of us as I sit on his lap. We made a toast to each other, ate a little more and then started looking over the calendar and discussing what all Trey had coming up. We currently were in the month of June so we decided on August 2nd of the following year which would give us plenty of time to plan. Plus that’s when Trey would have a window of time freed up to be around for rehearsals and travel for our honey moon.
“Oh babe you know we have my mom and dads anniversary celebration to go to next weekend.”
“Yeah I know. We staying from Friday to Monday right?”
“Yeah…is that still ok with you?”
“Oh nah it’s cool baby I was just making sure. So who gone be with Treyonna and Trejay while we‘re at the dinner?”
“Trey you know my parents are going to want them there.”
“I don’t know about that Shanell. I mean people are gonna be drinkin n’ shit. We can’t have them around that.”
“I thought about that too along with the fact that we’re going to be out late.”
“They’ll understand if we don’t bring ‘em.”
“Wait Trey are you talking about not taking them at all?”
“No, just not at the party baby.”
“I guess I’ll have to ask Mrs. Vanessa to go with us then. I just hate to ask her to come when we really only need her for that one night plus I told her she could have off since we‘d be gone.”
“She don’t mind being with them.”
“I know…” Suddenly we hear Trejay crying through the baby monitor. Trey gets up.
“I’ll go get him.”
“Ok.” While Trey went to go check on him I went ahead and cleaned up the glasses and left over dessert that was sitting on the table. I blew out all the candles and took everything down to the kitchen. When I walked in there Mrs. Vanessa was there. She’s the twins nanny. I really needed some additional help with them so me and Trey looked into having someone assist with that. Mrs. Vanessa has been with us since the twins were six weeks old. She’s been great too. I remember when Trey and I first saw her. We were so thrown by her uncanny likeness to Monique from “The Monique Show” and “The Parkers.” She’s not as big as her but man her looks resemble her so much. Her personality is not as big either but she’s the sweetest lady with the biggest heart. She’s forty years of age, a widow and has never had any children but she’s been a nanny for years and considers all the families she’s assisted with like her own. She was unloading the dishwasher.
“Hey Mrs. Vanessa.”
“Hey there baby!” She notices the dishes in my hand. “Oh let me take that for you.”
“I got it Mrs. Vanessa thank you. You go ahead and finish what you were doing.”
“Is that a new piece of jewelry I see around your neck?” I touch it and smile.
“It is.” I walk a little closer to Mrs. Vanessa and show it to her.
“Aw look at my babies. That’s an exquisite piece of jewelry you got there Shanell. That man got a good eye for the finer things that’s for sure.”
“I know. That’s why he spotted me.” That made Mrs. Vanessa laugh.
“Speak it miss lady. I heard that! My babies still sleeping?”
“Well Trejay was just fussing so Trey’s with him right now. Hopefully he didn’t wake Treyonna.”
“She seems to sleep pretty good when he’s up even if he is making a lot of noise.”
“Yeah but she can have her moments though.”
“I know it.”
“Mrs. Vanessa would you mind accompanying me and Trey next weekend to Atlanta. We decided not to bring the babies to my parents anniversary party. It would really mean a lot to us if you could come. I know you were given time off which you still will get…”
“Oh chile you know I don’t have a problem taking care of those two.”
“I know. I just feel bad since I gave you the weekend off and I hate to inconvenience you by needing you now.”
“It’s not an inconvenience and it‘s no problem at all.”
“Ok great. Thank you Mrs. Vanessa.”
“You’re welcome. Did you need anything done before I head on back to my room?”
“Nope! You go ahead and enjoy the rest of your night.”
“I will. I gotta date with my soaps. Tell Trey I said goodnight and I’ll see you two in the morning.”
“Ok.” Mrs. Vanessa leaves out of the kitchen. I finish up the little bit of dishes that we had and then head back up to the bedroom. I noticed Trey was back in the room on the terrace walking around with Trejay putting him back to sleep. It was a beautiful night out. Trejay was so spoiled. He is such a character for seven months. He demands so much attention already. Everyone says he looks just like me with Treys energetic personality and Treyonna looks like Trey. I walked over to Trey and snuck a kiss on Trejay’s cheek as he laid his head on Trey’s shoulder.
“Where mine at?”
“Oh don’t worry daddy. I’ll take care of you once you come to bed.” I left Trey alone with his son and went and got in the shower. Meanwhile Trey went and put Trejay back in his crib. As soon as he left out the twins room his phone rang.
“Yo man why you keep calling my phone?”
“Trey you know I have no issues with you. I’m only doing as my sister asked and she really needs you to make a visit. This time she told me to tell you and these are her words not mine, that if you don’t want your sex life suddenly leaked to the public then you need to come see her.”
“Fuck she mean!”
“I don’t know.”
“She making threats now?”
“Look that’s what she told me to tell you. Believe it or not I’m tired of going back and forth trying to get you to see her my damn self. But it is my sister so I’m sure you can understand my plight.”
“Nah I don’t, cause not too long ago you was blackmailing her ass.”
“That was before I knew how deep seeded her issues were.”
“Lemme get a pen and some paper and take down her information…hold on.” Trey went to find something to write on and with. “Alright where she at?” Summer gave him all the details and then they hung up. I was coming out of the bathroom in my towel and noticed Trey looking at a piece of paper.
"Baby what's that?"
“I just got a call from Summer again. She said Autumn wants me to come see her.”
“Autumns been wanting you to come see her for a while now. What’s so new about that?”
“Now it seems like she tryna make a threat.”
“By saying what?”
"It sound like she tryna start some bullshit with that DVD of the two of us."
“I am so tired of this! Trey when is it gonna end?” Trey tries to calm me.
“Look everything gone be alright ok? I think this time I‘ma go see her doe.” All I could do was shake my head instantly irritated. “Baby I know you don’t like the idea of me going but it’s the only way to possibly squash this.”
“Well I’m going with you then.” Trey cut his eyes at me like I said something offensive.
“No. I don’t want you going no where near her.”
“I think if would be good for me to see her Trey. She tried to kill me! I have yet to express any of my feelings about that to her, Crystal and Nikki.”
“I’m not letting you go see her. You hear me?” I couldn’t believe how adamant he was about it.
“Trey you should understand why I wanna talk to Autumn. Baby she’s behind bars it’s not like she can do anything to me. Why are you so set against me going?”
“After everything you’ve been through do you have to ask? Whatchu think I’m gonna be cool with the idea of you visiting her after all the shit she done did to you? Shanell her, Crystal and Nikki are the last people I want you around.”
“I don’t trust them baby. I don’t give a fuck about her being behind nobodies damn bars neither.”
“Trey I’m not gonna run away anymore. This is something that I need to do for me. I get that you only want to protect me but baby I’ve been thinking about this and I really do want to confront them.”
“Nah…you ain’t going.”
“Here we go again with you telling me what I can and cannot do.”
“You right. On this I am, so get what ever plans you had of making a visit out ya head because I‘m telling you no. Don’t think you gone pull some slick shit either…I mean it Shanell.” I stood by Trey with no words as I looked at him infuriated. His unwavering stance really was upsetting. I was so angry with him. I walked away and put my panties and tank top on to sleep in. He knew what time it was immediately.
“Oh so now you being like that?” I took the decorative pillows off the bed and aggressively put them in the chest. Trey stood there watching me as I went back and forth. Then he walks over to me and stands in front of me.
“So you just gone go to bed like dat and stay mad at me?” My eyes let him know that’s exactly what was about to happen. I walked away from him and turned out the light. He nodded his head.
“A‘ight.” Then he walks out the room. I got under the covers and laid there. All these thoughts entered my mind. How dare he feel like it’s ok for him to go see Autumn but I can’t. I don’t care what the circumstances are surrounding the visit. Him out of all people should know how important this is to me. He should want me to go if I feel it’s necessary. Oh he makes me sick sometimes. I don’t know Tremaine. You may just have to be mad with me on this one.
We never did come to an agreement that night. At least I never agreed. Damn this! I know what he said, but I’m going to make it a point to see Autumn, Crystal and Nikki. He’s not calling all the shots anymore. Shanell is back with a vengeance. I love you baby, but I’m doing things my way this time...
Autumn could now make her phone call for the night so she decided to call Summer to check on the things she asked of her.
“Oh good you are home. Well any luck?”
“I called Trey like you asked and gave him the information on where to come see you and about the recorded encounter of the two of you being shown.”
“Is he going to come?”
“Autumn I don’t know! Gosh! He didn’t say.”
“Ok well at least he knows. You still remember what I told you to do in case he doesn’t show up right?”
“Yes! I know. Why do I have to be put in the middle of your dirty work all the time. I’m tired of it.”
“Well had you not let him come in my room in the first place I wouldn’t be needing your help right now.”
“You’ve been needing my help way before now Autumn. I have covered for you time and time again plus been your scapegoat. Daddy doesn’t trust me now because of you, starting with the accident that you were in with his car and used my name and gave my license number. It was your company that was over the house and stole their lap top and you blamed it on my friends. You are a total bitch when it comes to me. Well now it’s your turn to see how using people for your own benefit feels. I changed my mind, I will not black male Trey for you with this taping. Find somebody else to do your dirty work.”
“Ugh! Summer! You can’t be serious! Don’t flake out on me now.”
“You’re the flake! Trying to kill someone over a man. My sister is a stupid bitch!”
“Bitch! You’re the one who’s been hiding the fact that she’s a lesbian from them afraid to admit it. I swear Summer if you don’t help me I will tell.”
“I don’t care! That’s nothing compared to the damage you have caused this family. You cost daddy his practice. Anything you say to him will be nothing compared to what you have done so tell him. I don’t care!”
Autumn started crying. She couldn’t believe her sister wasn’t going to help her out in this time of need.
“So Nikki are you ever going to get out of here?”
“I don’t know Charmaine. Why can’t Trey understand that everything I did was because I love him. How is love crazy?”
“Nikki love isn’t what’s crazy. It’s your behavior.”
“Charmaine you know I’m not crazy but if it’s going to keep me from going to jail then they can classify me as a nut case all day long.”
“Nikki do you feel any regret for any of the things that you’ve done?”
“Yeah. I regret that it didn’t work and I still don’t have Trey. I have to try harder.”
“Nikki Trey is happy with Shanell. They have a family together now. You think you’re really able to come in between that?”
“Whose side are you on?”
“I’m on yours but…”
“Those are my babies!” she snapped. “She took my family! My life! I want it back!”
Charmaine felt sorry for her friend. She was thinking Nikki was in this state because of the loss of Angel. She had no idea how sick Nikki really was.
“Well girlfriend I hope you get better. I really miss you and I‘ll always be here for you.” Nikki looked insulted.
“Get better? I just told you Charmaine there ain’t nothing wrong with me. My lawyer seems to think I’m suffering from this Post Traumatic Stress thing along with these doctors, but I’m fine.”
“You’re in a damn mental institution still delusional about Trey. That’s not fine! Nikki there is a real reason why you’re here. You really do need help.” Nikki smiles at Charmaine.
“Not in the least. Don’t you see? Trey could’ve shot me in that cabin but he didn’t. Why? Because part of him still loves me. I’m not delusional about that at all. I’ll take my pills and be a good girl until the day comes when we meet up again. It‘s only a matter of time before I get my family back. Believe me Charmaine I will get my family back.”
Paige had a visit to go see Crystal. She couldn’t believe the mess that her and Nikki caused Shanell and Trey. She wasn’t sure how she was going to act when she saw Crystal but she knew it was imperative that she saw her. When she arrived at the women’s correctional facility she checked in and had a seat. Once it was time they were taken back. She saw Crystal sitting at a table that was over by a small window so she went over to her. She gave her a hug and then had a seat.
“I didn’t think you were going to come.”
“I wasn’t sure if I was going to come this time either but I knew I was going to be seeing you. You know Crystal Shanell and Trey are my friends. You were my best friend. How could you do this to them?”
“So is this what this visit is going to be about? You criticizing me for the choices that I made? Believe me Paige if I had to do this over again I would. I never would have listened to El. I can’t even tell you why I did.”
“But you knew he was bad news. You knew that. I never knew you would do such cruel things and for what money? Money that you don’t even have. Do you honestly think that man was going to give you anything for helping him?”
“Like I said if I could do things over I would, but I can’t. I don’t need you holding me accountable when the judge has already saw to it that I will pay for what I've done.”
“Do you know that I feel responsible for this? I feel like if I would have never introduced Shanell to you that her life would be different. I can’t even face her or Trey because of it.”
“What about my life? I’m your best friend not her.”
“You were my best friend but no one who calls themselves my friend would ever torcher another human being who’s pregnant. Put her through hell because of the man that she is involved with and teams up with her ex just for money. I don’t want any friends like that.”
“Then why are you here?”
“To let you know that I don’t feel sorry for you not one bit. You deserve to be here and what ever sentence that was given to you. You need to also be thanking God that she didn’t lose those babies or her life.”
“I don’t need you to be judging me.”
“I know. You need me to pray for you and I will. You take care of yourself while you’re in here. It wouldn’t hurt too if you did a little praying yourself.” Then Paige winks at her and sat at an empty table till it was time to leave.
Tomorrow we’ll be flying to Atlanta to be there for my parents anniversary party so today we’ve been packing getting ready to make this trip. I’m really excited about going home. My auntie Sharon is going to be there with Ricky and Raven. It’s gonna feel good to see everyone and have everyone see the twins. Myself and Mrs. Vanessa was in the twins room packing their things while Trey was in their toy room keeping them occupied. We heard the buzzer sound off letting us know someone was at the gate. Evan notified me of who it was before he let them enter. It was Lynn. She lives in the neighborhood too and had been telling me that she was going to come by once we were settled. I guess she decided to make it over today. I was surprised she wasn’t at work. I told Mrs. Vanessa I would be back and went downstairs to meet Lynn at the door. She was so excited.
“Shanell this is beautiful. I can’t wait to see the rest of it.”
“Thank you. How come you’re not at work today?”
“Oh I was there. I took a half day today. You know our vacation starts tomorrow so I had some things I wanted to do before Richard, me and the kids left.”
“Oh yeah that’s right you guys are going on a cruise.”
“Yes girl. This vacation couldn’t get here fast enough.”
“Well let me show you around.”
“Where’s the twins?”
“They’re up in their toy room with Trey. We’ll see them when we go up there.” I showed Lynn the house downstairs and around outside first. Then we went upstairs and lastly I showed her the toy room where Trey was. When we went in there Trey was on the floor playing with the two of them while they were in their Exersaucers (stationary activity walkers). As soon as Trejay saw me he started acting like he wanted to cry and get out. Trey started talking to him.
“Aw boy cut that out…come on man…you was just cool…here play with this.” Trey pulled down a hanging bumble bee that was in front of him on the walker. Trejay got quiet for a minute as he looked at it. Then he looked back at me whining. I went and picked him up. He was happy after that.” Lynn starts laughing at Trey.
“Trey you looked like you were having more fun than they were. Reminiscing are we?”
“Ha ha very funny Lynn.” She starts laughing. “How you doin baby?”
“I’m wonderful. I love the house.”
“Thank you. I appreciate dat. How‘s my man Richard?”
“He’s good. He should be home right now actually.”
“You should tell him to come through. I gotta poker table in the basement waiting for him to get whipped up on. He needa come see me.”
“I don’t know about all that, my man is good, but I’ll let him know. Ok let me see miss onna…you mind Trey?”
“Nah go head.” Trey gets up off the floor first then Lynn picks up Treyonna. Trey walks over to me and talks to Trejay. “You gone stop all that whining boy. Daddy gotta toughen you up.” Trejay looks at Trey smiling. Trey plays with him in my arms making him laugh. Then he gives him a kiss on the mouth. “I gotta few more things to finalize for the tour so I’m bout to get dressed and I’ll be back a little later.”
“Ok babe.” Trey then gives me a kiss and leaves out the room. Suddenly he comes back.
“Hold up.” He takes Treyonna out of Lynn’s arms and plays with her in the air real quick Then he gives her a kiss and back to Lynn. “Alright I’ll be back…can‘t leave out my baby girl.” Lynn was looking at him steady smiling.
“He’s really good with them isn’t he?”
“The best.” We put the babies down and got on the floor to play with them as we talked. She brings up Nikki.
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