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Having those two around me wasn’t as bad as I thought it was gonna be. They’re really nice men but if you cross the line they will hurt you. I’ve seen them go to work on a few people who’ve tried to get close to me…they’re no joke. I really do feel safe with them. Part of me regrets not having security when Trey first asked. Maybe none of this would’ve never happened. We may not have ever split up and maybe I would’ve been protected from El. I guess there’s no need in dwelling on that now…what’s done is done. I hope he rots in jail for what he’s done to me. I’ve never hated anyone in my life but I hate him. I would never let Trey know my true emotions about El because I really believe he would kill him. I see something in Trey that wasn’t there before. Like he has this score to settle and he’s determined to make good on it. He thinks I don’t be paying attention when he says certain things to people in code so to speak but I do. I mean I don’t know what it means, but I’m sure it means something. I hope whatever this is he gets it out of his system and realize that El isn’t worth the energy or going to jail for.

I’m sitting at my desk when Trey calls me.
“Baby how would feel about going on a cruise.”
“Trey I don’t know baby. I just got back to work…I can’t leave…how are you able to go on cruise right now anyway?”
“Well I’ll be working…it’s a Celebrity Fun Fest that Royal Caribbean is having…a lot of the celebrities will be there doing a benefit for HIV/AIDS…I’ve been asked to perform and I wanna support the cause…”
Knock! Knock! Knock!
“Hold on baby…come in!”
“Shanell sorry to interrupt but we have an assignment for you that we thought you’d enjoy.”
“Really…hold on Bill…Baby let me call you back Bill needs to talk to me.”
“Ight…love you baby.”
“I love you too…puts down cell phone…Ok what‘s up?”
“Royal Carribbean is sponsoring a Celebrity Fun Fest…I couldn’t believe what I was hearing…

Replied To: Story - Does She Know ()
On: Jul 22, 2011

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They make me feel like I’m damaged goods or something. Like I’m not worthy to be with Trey. It’s really hurtful. My hair for the most part can hide it some, but certain ways I might turn my head or when the wind blows it’s noticeable. Trey tells me all the time not listen to that negative feedback…well I’m putting it nicely he says bullshit, but it’s hard not too. I mean for the most part his fans have been supportive, which really surprised me and that makes me feel good.

Some of them have really reached out and let me know that they were glad I was going to be ok. My mom feels like I should talk to a councelor because that experience was so traumatic, but I don’t wanna talk about it at all…at least not yet. I’m making strides though, before I wouldn’t even come out of my condo. At least now I’ll go to the store and run my little errands instead of asking Trey to handle it for me or my mom. I missed out on my Nelly interview since I had been out of work. Lynn did it for me. I wanted to meet him so bad. I’ve always liked Nelly. I think it was for the best, because now that I have this scar on my face it’s made me very self-conscious. I probably would’ve been thinking he was looking at the scar and not just giving me eye contact. I’ll be going back to work soon and in a way I can’t wait. I miss it…but part of me can wait, because I’m not ready for the stares.

Me and my mom decided to go out to breakfast. I usually wouldn’t sit out in public so this is a huge step for me. She’ll be going back to work soon so she wanted us to hang out before she leaves. We decided to go to “IHOP.” My two bodyguards Evan and Marcus ate with us as well. It was peaceful for the most part…Treys fans wanted to give me things to give to him. Some of them even had something for me. I was touched. I had to tell Evan and Marcus it was ok for them to give it too me. They checked it thoroughly before they handed it to me.

Replied To: Story - Does She Know ()
On: Jul 22, 2011

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We Should Be

Shanell

It’s been six weeks since the incident. I’ve been shown so much love and support from my co-workers, family and friends. Trey’s mom has visited me. She’s called to check on me telling me to be encouraged and letting me know if there is anything that she could do or anytime I wanted to talk she was here for me. I just loved his mom. No matter what was going on with me and Trey she never treated me any differently. Always showed me love. She was happy when she found out that we were seeing each other again. She said whatever made her baby happy made her happy.

My mom has been here with me for a while taking care of my wound, making sure it’s healing properly. I hated the fact that she had to come home to hear some bad news about me. I put my house up for rent and have been staying in a condo. I couldn’t go back there and stay. It was too painfull. I really loved my house too, but I loved my sanity more which I was slowly losing. My mom has been a huge help to me since she’s been here. She came the day Trey left. He had to go shoot videos for a few collaborations that he’s on. He’s been wonderful these past couple of weeks. He had some things rescheduled just so he could be here with me a little longer. He’s been my own personal bodyguard. I try to tell him to relax but since the incident…that’s not happening. He’s been so protective of me. Now that he’s back working he has security with me and I’ve accepted it. I’m definitely well known now and the paparazzi has been relentless.
It’s really been hard these past few weeks trying to recover from what happened. I have nightmares every so often about it. I look at this slash on my face everyday and still cry. It bothers me the way people stare at me now. Oh and the haters are so cruel. The women that hate the fact that Trey has a girl, call me names all the time. I’m known as scar, zipper face, misses slash, I mean they’ve made up all kinds of names for me.

Replied To: Story - Does She Know ()
On: Jul 22, 2011

@JamRoC_4eVa - Aw I love it.I didn't mean to make you cry but i did...lol...I wanted this scene to be emotional so I'm glad it did come across that way. I know you always so show your support with my stories I can't thank you enough!

@stlgirl4lyfe2010 - Wow...that was compliment that I'll take! :) I agree with you...I'd love to find someone like that one day too.

I'll have another post coming soon. Thanks again to everyone for the comments and for the readers that don't like to leave comments I hope you're enjoying it too!

Replied To: Story - Does She Know ()
On: Jul 21, 2011

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“SHANELL YOU THINK THIS IS EASY FOR ME…LIKE I CAN JUST WALK AWAY FROM YOU LIKE DAT!!! WHEN DAT NIGGA CUT YOU, HE CUT A PIECE OF ME TOO! I’M SO FUCKIN MAD WIT MYSELF BECAUSE I COULDN’T DO SHIT BUT SIT THERE AND WATCH!!! HE HAD A FUCKIN GUN TO YA HEAD BABY!!! I THANK GOD HE DIDN’T SHOOT…DO YOU KNOW HOW DAT MADE ME FEEL…patting his chest…I COULDN’T DO SHIT!!!”

His words got my attention real quick and when I looked at him a stream of tears was on his face as he stood there. I never even thought about what affect it had on Trey. I got up off the bed and went to comfort him. I may have been the only one to feel the pain physically but we both suffered from this emotionally.

“I’m sorry baby…I’m so sorry…I wasn’t thinking about the affect that it had on you…I look at his face and I see the hurt and anger he was feeling. I put both of my hands on the sides of it and wipe the tears away as they dropped from his eyes. He started to calm down.

“I could never just leave you like dat baby. When I tell you I love you dat shit is real. This right here…lightly touching my cheek…doesn’t change that. It only makes me realize how much more I can’t live without you.”

He kisses me and tells me that he loves me so much and promises me that he will never be made to feel helpless again and that no one will be able to hurt me again. El may have gotten away with it that day but he promises me he hasn't gotten away with it at all. I just wanted Trey to let it go. I just hope he listens.

Replied To: Story - Does She Know ()
On: Jul 20, 2011
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I'm a independent woman & mother who strives 4 the best 4 myself & my fam. I luv 2 write & would luv 2 become a famous author, which is a dream of mine, & soon 2 bcome my reality. I've jus wrote my 1st book. I know it's a process, but at least I'm n the game & I play 2 win. I'm a new fan of Trey Songz. I've always heard his music, but it wasn't until I heard "Hood Love" by MJB featuring him, that piqued my interest about him as an artist. I have all his cd's now & I'm lovin the latest 1 PPP. I"ve said it b4 & I'll say it again Trey u inspire me as a writer. I luv ur work. I can honestly say that ur songs make me feel like ur talkin 2 no1 else but me. That feels so good, esp. when ur single & u've had a long day & u need that “pick me up" or somethin 2 jus remind u that there r sum good men out there. 2 have that ability is special which is truly what u r Tremaine Neverson. I have nothin but luv 4 u as a human being, artist, & a man. U make me smile Trey Songz. Lol:-) God Bless!
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