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“Nelly belly, is everything alright?” I walk over to my door and shut it for some privacy.
“I don’t know daddy. That’s why I’m calling you. I need some answers. I need the truth!”
“The truth?” He questions.
“Yes daddy! The truth. I’m not sure if Trey has given me straight answers, so I need them from you.”
“Where is he?” I briefly look at the phone for a second, irritated by his question.
“He had to go to work…photo shoots and shows to do. Why?”
“What has he said to you?”
“It’s more like what’s not being said. Daddy what is it that you and Trey aren’t telling me?” There was a brief silence on the other end before he responded.
“Shanell what’s making you think that we’re hiding something?”
“I don’t think daddy, I know. There’s been some things coming back to me from the night of El’s murder. I remember…” He cuts me off.
“That’s what this is about? El’s murder?”
“Yes daddy. What else would it be about?”
“Nothing!” He says relieved. “What do you think I’m supposed to know?”
“I saw you and Trey looking at each other like you had an understanding. It was odd and I didn’t pay any real attention to it at the time. Now that bits of that night are starting to come back to me, I remember that, but it was something in the way the two of you stared at each other.” Daddy’s giving me grunting noises like I’m being ridiculous. “I know what I saw. What were those looks about?”
“Shanell, how bout we do this. As soon as I have a free moment I’ll come to visit. You can ask me anything that you want, but I don’t think it’s a good idea to discuss your concerns over the phone, deal?” I run my fingers through my hair a little frustrated, because I wanted answers now, but I know he’s right. I still had to be careful since it was an ongoing investigation, so I agreed.

On: Jul 25, 2013

I missed Trey. I wished so badly that he would understand about the adoption already, so we could get on with our lives. The case with El alone is more than enough to be concerned with and I just pray to God that it will be a closed case soon. The more I sat there and thought about it, memories of that night flashed back. I remembered my dad was in the room before my uncle came in. I remember his face, the way he looked at Trey before he told Trey to get me out of there. It was like they had this unspoken communication before Trey and I left out of the barn. Why did they look at each other that way? Come to think of it, why was my dad standing opposite everyone else like he came in from a different way? Marcus invades my thought process by letting me know he sees Aleen waiting up ahead outside of the airport terminal. I suddenly see her now that I’m focused and not in my head. Marcus gets out of the car poised knowing he wants to unleash his pleasure of seeing her. They speak to one another, Marcus still self-contained; Aleen radiant, but controlled in her response. He takes her bags and put them in the trunk. The whole drive back we talked about her prospects and what she was looking for and saw online. I told her I had some news for her. Lynn had given me the name of her realtor and said he would be available to help her with her search. I told Aleen he came highly recommended and maybe she should give him a call. I noticed Marcus staring at her in the mirror checking out her expression. She thought it was a good idea instead of us blindly looking on our own even though she had a pretty good idea of what she wanted to see. She figured since real-estate would be a realtor’s expertise why not. I told her I’d give her the information once we got home. While Aleen was getting settled in once we arrived at the house I went to my room and decided to call my dad. I had some questions about the night of El’s death and figured maybe he could shed some light on it. He answers immediately with concern.

On: Jul 25, 2013

Today I was picking Aleen up from the airport. She was going to be here for a while, house hunting. I told her she could gladly take over the condo. My tenants lease will be up in two months and they weren’t going to be renewing it. She thought that would be perfect for her, but she still wanted to look and see what she could find. I was glad she was going to be here. I needed a distraction while Trey was gone. Plus the twins’ birthday was just a matter of months away and I could use some input on my plans for it. I’ll discuss it with Trey once he comes back. I know he’ll want to talk about that at least. I can’t believe our babies are going to be a year old soon. Before long they’ll be walking. Time is really going by and it’s not in my favor right now. If I knew for sure that we would be walking down that aisle next year I would still move forward with our wedding plans. But I can’t seem to convince myself that will be happening. Trey barely can look at me. How can I come to him about our wedding with him feeling how he does right now? I mean I know he loves me. I damn sure love him, but will it be enough to get us through all of this, even if I do stay strong? I know I shouldn’t be thinking about all of this especially with a murder case hanging over us, but I need something positive to focus on. I figure since our wedding likely is at a standstill the birthdays is the next best thing to start on. Traffic was horrible going to LAX airport. It was inching along. I was in the car with Marcus. Of course he was going to be the one to bring me.
“So how long she gone be staying here?” he asks. I answer nonchalantly while I’m deep in thought looking out the window.
“A few weeks. She’ll be house hunting.” Then I look at Marcus. His face was a mixture of surprise combined with a beaming glow on it. “You did know she was moving here right?”
“Actually I didn’t.” I was surprised she didn’t tell him. I wondered now, should I not had said anything. Maybe she had a reason why she didn’t mention it to him. I went back to looking out the window.

On: Jul 25, 2013

With that, Trey left. He came back home. I was in the nursery playing with the twins. Trey came in there and was smiling at his babies as he saw me playing with them. He picked up Trejay and told me to hand him Treyonna. He had both of them in his arms.
“Daddy bouta go bye-bye for a bit. Lil man you gone look after ya mumma and ya sister?” Trejay smiles. “That’s my boy.” Then he looks at Treyonna. She was putting her hands on his face. “Baby girl you make sure you don’t be giving ya mumma and brother a hard time while daddy gone. I know how you get when I’m not around.” Treyonna continues to explore Trey’s face messing with his nose. “I’m gonna miss you two. My lil two piece.” He says. He kisses each of them on the cheek. Then he looks at me. “I guess I better finish getting ready for this lil stint I’m bout to do. With apprehension about him going I cross my arms and rub my elbows. I wanted to be holding him.
“Yeah, I know.” I unhappily say. He leans in for me to take Trejay. I grab him out of his arms. “I finished up you’re packing for you, at least what you had out to take with you.”
“Thanks!” He puts Treyonna in her stationary walker. Suddenly Mrs. Vanessa enters the room.
“Would you two like for me to take over?” I looked at Trey and he looked at me. I answered.
“Yes Mrs. Vanessa that would be great.” Trey headed to the bedroom and I walked behind him. He gathers up his bags while looking around the room making sure he didn’t forget anything. I was standing beside him and the bed. He looks at me. The tone in his voice is melancholy.
“I know a lot of things have yet to be said, but I can’t deal with that right now. I gotta try to focus on work.” This was all too familiar. I hated the fact that at times our personal problems would have to take a back seat because Trey’s mindset needed to be in a certain space. I knew it didn’t mean that he didn’t care, it just was how he could cope and be Trey Songz to his fans. I knew it, so I had to be patient.
“I understand.” I said. Even though I wanted to be selfish. I felt myself ready to cry again. My voice trembled as I managed to get out a few more words before the tears fell. “You will call me once you get there right?”
“Yeah, I’ll call.” The anguish I was beginning to feel was overpowering. He noticed it. “Don’t look so sad. I’ma be touching base.” I couldn’t hold it in any longer. I cried trying to still talk, sounding like a robot.
“I just feel like…even though you’ve been here…I’ve still been away from you…and now you really won’t be here and…” He lets his bags go and clinches me in his arms. I haven’t been touched by Trey in weeks. Not even for sex, which really has me worried, but he’s been angry with me. When he hugged me like that I just bawled even more. It felt so good to have him back in my arms again. He tries to calm me speaking comforting words as he holds me.

On: Jul 10, 2013

“We’ve been through a lot of shit man and still going through it, but just because I need some time right now doesn’t mean that I don’t still love you.” With his hands gripping my shoulders he pulls back and looks at me. “You hear me?” I shake my head yes. He continues talking. “Baby I love you, that’s why this has been so hard. I gotta lot that I need to figure out and what I need the most right now from you is for you to stay strong for me…for us. That’s all I need.” As I look at him the expression on his face is contrite, but his eyes are so full of passion. “Can you do that for me?”
sniffs first “Yes,” I say at a whisper. Then he kisses me. I cherished every second of our lips touching, before he let me go.
“I probably was better off not touching you.” He says. My baby was so hard. I wanted him so badly at that moment. I had to take a chance. I bite down on the corner of my lip and nervously ask the question.
“You don’t have time for a quickie?” He gazes into my eyes contemplating his response. I speak before he answers. “Don’t worry I won’t get any ideas or not take seriously what you just said. I just want to do this for you.” He gave it a little more thought and looked at his watch.
“I better not. I’m already cutting it close as it is.” He grabs his luggage again. “I guess I better be headin’ out. I’ll call you.” Another quick peck on the lips and he was on his way. Me and Trey’s mom saw him off. I was heartbroken. This was the first time that Trey has went to work upset with me along with not getting the proper send off. I had to believe what he said is true about loving me and he wouldn’t do anything to hurt me, while he was away from me. I felt like the wedding once again was in limbo. With the investigation going and the way things were with us, I didn’t know what to do as far as planning. Then I started thinking maybe there’s a reason why this wedding has yet to take place. Maybe it’s not meant to happen. I felt I was fighting a losing battle. Mom April put her arm around me and broke the trance that I was in.
“He really does love you, you know. I believe he’ll come around. It just has to be in his own time, okay?” I smiled. She was reading my mind. The rest of that day I was like a zombie. My body was here, but my mind was consumed with worry. I didn’t know how I was going to make it with Trey being gone. Not only would he be gone for the photo shoot that he’s doing in New York first, but he also had some shows to do in different cities, so I wasn’t going to see him for over a few weeks. It had only been a few hours and I was losing it already. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt this insecure. I was actually starting to do better. Right now I wish we could go back to the time when the twins were first born and everything seemed somewhat normal. Even with El being on the loose I still felt safe; my world protected, because Trey made everything right. Now my world is crumbling and I don’t know how to fix the broken pieces. He did call me finally to let me know he made it safely and would soon be getting ready for the shoot. He apologized for not calling sooner. He said they had a lot going on when he arrived and time had gotten away from him. He asked about his babies and I told him they were out with his mom shopping. I made small talk to keep him on the phone, but that only lasted for so long. He said he had to go. I wished him a good night, told him that I loved him and then we hung up.

On: Jul 10, 2013
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I'm a independent woman & mother who strives 4 the best 4 myself & my fam. I luv 2 write & would luv 2 become a famous author, which is a dream of mine, & soon 2 bcome my reality. I've jus wrote my 1st book. I know it's a process, but at least I'm n the game & I play 2 win. I'm a new fan of Trey Songz. I've always heard his music, but it wasn't until I heard "Hood Love" by MJB featuring him, that piqued my interest about him as an artist. I have all his cd's now & I'm lovin the latest 1 PPP. I"ve said it b4 & I'll say it again Trey u inspire me as a writer. I luv ur work. I can honestly say that ur songs make me feel like ur talkin 2 no1 else but me. That feels so good, esp. when ur single & u've had a long day & u need that “pick me up" or somethin 2 jus remind u that there r sum good men out there. 2 have that ability is special which is truly what u r Tremaine Neverson. I have nothin but luv 4 u as a human being, artist, & a man. U make me smile Trey Songz. Lol:-) God Bless!
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