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“We’ve been through a lot of shit man and still going through it, but just because I need some time right now doesn’t mean that I don’t still love you.” With his hands gripping my shoulders he pulls back and looks at me. “You hear me?” I shake my head yes. He continues talking. “Baby I love you, that’s why this has been so hard. I gotta lot that I need to figure out and what I need the most right now from you is for you to stay strong for me…for us. That’s all I need.” As I look at him the expression on his face is contrite, but his eyes are so full of passion. “Can you do that for me?”
sniffs first “Yes,” I say at a whisper. Then he kisses me. I cherished every second of our lips touching, before he let me go.
“I probably was better off not touching you.” He says. My baby was so hard. I wanted him so badly at that moment. I had to take a chance. I bite down on the corner of my lip and nervously ask the question.
“You don’t have time for a quickie?” He gazes into my eyes contemplating his response. I speak before he answers. “Don’t worry I won’t get any ideas or not take seriously what you just said. I just want to do this for you.” He gave it a little more thought and looked at his watch.
“I better not. I’m already cutting it close as it is.” He grabs his luggage again. “I guess I better be headin’ out. I’ll call you.” Another quick peck on the lips and he was on his way. Me and Trey’s mom saw him off. I was heartbroken. This was the first time that Trey has went to work upset with me along with not getting the proper send off. I had to believe what he said is true about loving me and he wouldn’t do anything to hurt me, while he was away from me. I felt like the wedding once again was in limbo. With the investigation going and the way things were with us, I didn’t know what to do as far as planning. Then I started thinking maybe there’s a reason why this wedding has yet to take place. Maybe it’s not meant to happen. I felt I was fighting a losing battle. Mom April put her arm around me and broke the trance that I was in.
“He really does love you, you know. I believe he’ll come around. It just has to be in his own time, okay?” I smiled. She was reading my mind. The rest of that day I was like a zombie. My body was here, but my mind was consumed with worry. I didn’t know how I was going to make it with Trey being gone. Not only would he be gone for the photo shoot that he’s doing in New York first, but he also had some shows to do in different cities, so I wasn’t going to see him for over a few weeks. It had only been a few hours and I was losing it already. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt this insecure. I was actually starting to do better. Right now I wish we could go back to the time when the twins were first born and everything seemed somewhat normal. Even with El being on the loose I still felt safe; my world protected, because Trey made everything right. Now my world is crumbling and I don’t know how to fix the broken pieces. He did call me finally to let me know he made it safely and would soon be getting ready for the shoot. He apologized for not calling sooner. He said they had a lot going on when he arrived and time had gotten away from him. He asked about his babies and I told him they were out with his mom shopping. I made small talk to keep him on the phone, but that only lasted for so long. He said he had to go. I wished him a good night, told him that I loved him and then we hung up.

On: Jul 10, 2013

“What’s wrong?”
“He didn’t know anything. I told him. I tried to explain to him that nothing happened. That you didn’t get to kiss or even touch me and…”
“You told him exactly what happened?”
“I had no choice. He threatened me! Before that I wasn’t going to give him any information. I acted like I didn’t know what he was talking about. Then he warned me that if I didn’t tell him what you did, I would lose my license to practice. I simply explained what took place thinking he would see that it was nothing.”
“Damn!”
“Trey I’m sorry. I didn’t know. He kept pushing my buttons saying I was lying and he knew the truth. Then he mentioned board names of people that could cost me my job and everything that I’ve worked so hard for if I didn’t tell him. I didn’t know what to think, so that’s why I eventually said something.”
“That man ain’t know shit! He was just tryna see what he could get out of you.” Kelli went from frustrated to mad.
“Well, I had no way of knowing that Trey. He was very convincing. You tell me how I was supposed to know he was bluffing?”
“Look, you’re right. You did the right thing under those circumstances. I’m sorry you had to be dragged into this, but don’t worry. You’re not gonna lose your license or anything like that. I’ll make sure of it.”
“Trey maybe you should tell Shanell about this now. I really don’t feel comfortable that her father knows and is trying to hang something that was harmless over us. I mean, you still didn’t have your memory back yet and you had been drinking that night. I know you were confused and just had a moment, but you realized it and apologized. Nothing happened. She has to understand that right? Besides, I don’t know why he’s trying to make this into something anyway. What’s going on?” Trey gets up and walks over to Kelli. He reassuringly puts his hand on her shoulder.
“Nothing I can’t handle, but don’t you worry. You won’t be put in the middle again. His fight is with me, not you.” Kelli folds her arms and shakes her head.
“I knew we should’ve told her when it happened…just because. I’ve always felt guilty for keeping this from her. Shanell is my friend. I never would do anything to jeopardize that.”
“Again Kelli, I apologize. I know I put you in an awkward position back then, when you were only there to do your job. I just was going through some things, you know. Your nurturing nature had felt familiar to me. I know we’ve never discussed this aside from me saying it was no reason to tell Shanell, since you set me straight and nothing happened. But it just felt nice not to have somebody wanting anything from me. Shanell had expectations of me. Nikki was coming at me, but there you were, only giving. Even though you were there to help take care of Shanell, you also looked out for me too. I really appreciated that and I’m sorry for taking your generosity and turning it into something offensive.”
“Apology accepted, but you knew that already. I knew that was a hard time for you Trey. More importantly, I knew how much you and Shanell meant to each other even if you didn’t.”
“...Anyway I gotta go, but thanks for talking to me. Like I said, don’t even worry about none of this. I’ma take care of it.” She walks Trey to the door. She had one last question for him before he left.
“Trey, I still would like to know if you’re going to tell Shanell. She is my friend and I really don’t want any hard feelings between us. I just need to know what to be prepared for.” Regretfully he answers.
“It’s nothing to tell.”

On: Jul 10, 2013

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Overwhelmed and baffled all at the same time. I never imagined this for us. My whole family is falling apart right in front of my eyes and I’m to blame. My mom and my auntie still aren’t speaking. My dad and my mom are having problems because of my secret. It really hurt her that he didn’t think twice about telling her, so she could be there for me too. She felt that was a family matter, not one he should have taken on without her having knowledge of. She never expected him to keep something so serious, so big, away from her, which now has her questioning what else my father is capable of. She’s left out of the house for a while, so my dad’s been getting the cold shoulder just like me. I don’t know when Trey is going to come around. I’ve really made a mess of things. He still hadn’t been sleeping in our bedroom yet. My hope is that soon he’ll realize my reasons were valid for what I did and forgive me. His mom has been here and now she knows about what happened. The news really took her by surprise too, but she didn’t judge me. She was very sympathetic to the situation. She told me the same thing everyone else has been saying which is that I’m going to have to give Trey some time. Ultimately, she believes he’ll come to terms with it and recognize that it’s not worth risking what we’ve built and the plans we have of spending our lives together. I hope she’s right.

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Trey has been running all over the place since we’ve gotten back. I feel like he leaves just so he doesn’t have to be around me that long. I don’t know what to make out of it, truthfully. He’s on his way out again. He said he had something to take care of. I’ve been hearing that a lot it seems. It’s bad enough he’s leaving again. Trey Songz is always working. I've really missed Tremaine lately, but it’s the life I live and with us at odds right now it definitely doesn’t help. What I didn’t know was before he left, he was going to see Kelli. He finally had the time to go talk to her about what my dad had said to her. Kelli already knew what he wanted to see her about, but she had it in her mind she was going to let him talk first before she said anything. She invited Trey in once he arrived at her house. She offered him something to drink, but he told her he didn’t want anything. Next she told him to have a seat so he sits down in a living room chair. She sits on the couch.

On: Jul 10, 2013

“Look, I’m just gone get right to the reason why I’m here. I know Shanell’s dad came to see you some time ago or had some words with you, right?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Trey heavily sighs; face showing his disbelief with his sharp gaze and wrinkled forehead.
“Kelli, I know Bruce has been in contact with you. He told me he spoke to you, so tell me. What did he say to you?” Kelli was frazzled. She wasn’t sure if she should say anything for fear Bruce would find out.
“Trey, I haven’t seen Bruce.” Trey notices Kelli’s mannerisms change, plus she avoided eye contact. He goes and sits on the couch beside her.
“Aye! What’s up witchu? Why you scared to talk to me?” Kelli still remained quiet. “Whatever he said to you, you can tell me. I promise you nothing bad is going to happen.” She looks at Trey realizing she can trust him and decided to tell him the truth.
“He did pay me a visit…one I wasn’t too happy with.”
“What’d he say to you?”
“Trey I don’t know if you’re here because you’re upset with me for talking to him, but if that’s the case than you shouldn’t be. That man threatened my job. I felt like I didn’t have a choice. He told me that he wanted to talk to me because Shanell was upset about what happened between the two of us. I naturally assumed he knew something and tried to quickly explain that nothing happened.”
“But he didn’t know anything.”
“What do you mean, he didn’t know anything? He said…” Trey interrupts.
“Kelli, he played you. He was just fishing to see what he could find; if something was there and you fell for it.”
“Well, how was I supposed to know? He made it seem like you came clean to Shanell and she confided in him, so now he wanted to talk to me.”
“Yeah, that’s what he wanted you to think, but nah, he didn’t know anything.” Kelli was shocked. She shook her head in disbelief. She gets up and moves away from Trey. “Kelli, talk to me.”
“This doesn’t make any sense. He said Shanell told him…” She stops and covers her mouth. She remembers that she interrupted Bruce trying to explain right away that nothing happened. She told him Trey didn’t get a chance to kiss her because she turned him down. She realized she was deceived. Trey looks at her curiously wondering what she’s thinking.

On: Jul 10, 2013

Hello everyone, just wanted to let you know in case you've been checking that I haven't forgotten about you. Been on vacation (from writing) for the 4th. Hope you guys had a great holiday. I'll have more up this week! Love you guys! :)

On: Jul 08, 2013
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I'm a independent woman & mother who strives 4 the best 4 myself & my fam. I luv 2 write & would luv 2 become a famous author, which is a dream of mine, & soon 2 bcome my reality. I've jus wrote my 1st book. I know it's a process, but at least I'm n the game & I play 2 win. I'm a new fan of Trey Songz. I've always heard his music, but it wasn't until I heard "Hood Love" by MJB featuring him, that piqued my interest about him as an artist. I have all his cd's now & I'm lovin the latest 1 PPP. I"ve said it b4 & I'll say it again Trey u inspire me as a writer. I luv ur work. I can honestly say that ur songs make me feel like ur talkin 2 no1 else but me. That feels so good, esp. when ur single & u've had a long day & u need that “pick me up" or somethin 2 jus remind u that there r sum good men out there. 2 have that ability is special which is truly what u r Tremaine Neverson. I have nothin but luv 4 u as a human being, artist, & a man. U make me smile Trey Songz. Lol:-) God Bless!
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