C the Pain

My mother who I look up to and learned everything from who was the only one I had growing up has become very ill. A woman I have known my whole life and have never seen her take any shit from anyone. She has surrendered her strength, she has become submissive to man and everyone around her because she is tired of fighting. I don't agree with it and it pains me because she won't fight anymore and I try fighting for her but she pushes me away telling me there is nothing wrong. My mother is my world and I would do anything and everything for her. I can see she is hurt, emotional and weak. I received my strength from a woman who I can no longer find. What once was my strength has now become my weakness and I must fight for her to let me in and she won't.She is sick and she doesn't want me by her side if anything were to happen. If I am not the one I will feel guilty and angry because this was her choice.She will not let me be her strength and give her back what she has given me.