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On: Jul 25, 2013

“Deal. Don’t make this wait too long daddy. I really need some clarity.”
“I won’t baby, I promise.”
“When are you going to get mom to come home?”
“Shanell you know it’s not that simple with your mom. She’s re-evaluating our marriage now, and starting to question a lot of unnecessary things…but don’t you worry, we’ll work it out. I ain’t letting that woman go nowhere. I’ll give her what she needs for now and I’m sure before long, she’ll come home. I love her. She knows I love her and I’d never do anything to intentionally hurt her. As a married couple, and as your mother, I should’ve told her about your situation. I know you didn’t want me too, but now in hindsight I shouldn’t have kept this from her. Now I just have to let her do, what she needs to do, to find it in her heart to forgive me.” My dad’s words echoed and reiterated what I had to do for Trey.
“I’m sorry daddy. I wish I’d never put you in that position. I understand now. I kick myself over and over again for not telling Trey.”
“Yeah well, we can’t change it now. By the way, how have things been with the two of you since he’s heard the news?”
“As good as can be expected considering what he found out.” I say exasperated. “I can’t take no more secrets daddy. I can’t.”
“You two will be alright. I’m sure of it.”
“So everyone says. I wish I could be so sure. Anyway daddy I better go check on the twins.” Next, I say with hint of authority, “Please come visit soon. We gotta talk!” Then I smile even though he can’t see it.
“I’ll be there as soon as time permits.” There’s that word time, I think to myself.
“Love you daddy.”
“I love you too nelly belly. Kiss and hug my grandchildren for me.” After that conversation I decided to check on the twins and Aleen. We spent the next several hours out in the yard with the little ones playing and enjoying the weather. Thoughts of the night El was killed continued to invade my brain. I really needed to also voice this new epiphany to Trey. I know this could also cause more problems, but like I told my dad I can’t take no more secrets. If he knows something. He needs to tell me. I sound like a hypocrite right now I know, since I haven’t been very forthcoming with him. But two wrongs don’t make a right. I want things right for us again. We owe this relationship even more of a fighting chance now that El is dead. Trey really needs to talk to me.

On: Jul 25, 2013

“Nelly belly, is everything alright?” I walk over to my door and shut it for some privacy.
“I don’t know daddy. That’s why I’m calling you. I need some answers. I need the truth!”
“The truth?” He questions.
“Yes daddy! The truth. I’m not sure if Trey has given me straight answers, so I need them from you.”
“Where is he?” I briefly look at the phone for a second, irritated by his question.
“He had to go to work…photo shoots and shows to do. Why?”
“What has he said to you?”
“It’s more like what’s not being said. Daddy what is it that you and Trey aren’t telling me?” There was a brief silence on the other end before he responded.
“Shanell what’s making you think that we’re hiding something?”
“I don’t think daddy, I know. There’s been some things coming back to me from the night of El’s murder. I remember…” He cuts me off.
“That’s what this is about? El’s murder?”
“Yes daddy. What else would it be about?”
“Nothing!” He says relieved. “What do you think I’m supposed to know?”
“I saw you and Trey looking at each other like you had an understanding. It was odd and I didn’t pay any real attention to it at the time. Now that bits of that night are starting to come back to me, I remember that, but it was something in the way the two of you stared at each other.” Daddy’s giving me grunting noises like I’m being ridiculous. “I know what I saw. What were those looks about?”
“Shanell, how bout we do this. As soon as I have a free moment I’ll come to visit. You can ask me anything that you want, but I don’t think it’s a good idea to discuss your concerns over the phone, deal?” I run my fingers through my hair a little frustrated, because I wanted answers now, but I know he’s right. I still had to be careful since it was an ongoing investigation, so I agreed.

On: Jul 25, 2013

I missed Trey. I wished so badly that he would understand about the adoption already, so we could get on with our lives. The case with El alone is more than enough to be concerned with and I just pray to God that it will be a closed case soon. The more I sat there and thought about it, memories of that night flashed back. I remembered my dad was in the room before my uncle came in. I remember his face, the way he looked at Trey before he told Trey to get me out of there. It was like they had this unspoken communication before Trey and I left out of the barn. Why did they look at each other that way? Come to think of it, why was my dad standing opposite everyone else like he came in from a different way? Marcus invades my thought process by letting me know he sees Aleen waiting up ahead outside of the airport terminal. I suddenly see her now that I’m focused and not in my head. Marcus gets out of the car poised knowing he wants to unleash his pleasure of seeing her. They speak to one another, Marcus still self-contained; Aleen radiant, but controlled in her response. He takes her bags and put them in the trunk. The whole drive back we talked about her prospects and what she was looking for and saw online. I told her I had some news for her. Lynn had given me the name of her realtor and said he would be available to help her with her search. I told Aleen he came highly recommended and maybe she should give him a call. I noticed Marcus staring at her in the mirror checking out her expression. She thought it was a good idea instead of us blindly looking on our own even though she had a pretty good idea of what she wanted to see. She figured since real-estate would be a realtor’s expertise why not. I told her I’d give her the information once we got home. While Aleen was getting settled in once we arrived at the house I went to my room and decided to call my dad. I had some questions about the night of El’s death and figured maybe he could shed some light on it. He answers immediately with concern.

On: Jul 25, 2013

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Today I was picking Aleen up from the airport. She was going to be here for a while, house hunting. I told her she could gladly take over the condo. My tenants lease will be up in two months and they weren’t going to be renewing it. She thought that would be perfect for her, but she still wanted to look and see what she could find. I was glad she was going to be here. I needed a distraction while Trey was gone. Plus the twins’ birthday was just a matter of months away and I could use some input on my plans for it. I’ll discuss it with Trey once he comes back. I know he’ll want to talk about that at least. I can’t believe our babies are going to be a year old soon. Before long they’ll be walking. Time is really going by and it’s not in my favor right now. If I knew for sure that we would be walking down that aisle next year I would still move forward with our wedding plans. But I can’t seem to convince myself that will be happening. Trey barely can look at me. How can I come to him about our wedding with him feeling how he does right now? I mean I know he loves me. I damn sure love him, but will it be enough to get us through all of this, even if I do stay strong? I know I shouldn’t be thinking about all of this especially with a murder case hanging over us, but I need something positive to focus on. I figure since our wedding likely is at a standstill the birthdays is the next best thing to start on. Traffic was horrible going to LAX airport. It was inching along. I was in the car with Marcus. Of course he was going to be the one to bring me.
“So how long she gone be staying here?” he asks. I answer nonchalantly while I’m deep in thought looking out the window.
“A few weeks. She’ll be house hunting.” Then I look at Marcus. His face was a mixture of surprise combined with a beaming glow on it. “You did know she was moving here right?”
“Actually I didn’t.” I was surprised she didn’t tell him. I wondered now, should I not had said anything. Maybe she had a reason why she didn’t mention it to him. I went back to looking out the window.

On: Jul 25, 2013

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