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Oh my!!! Hopefully Treys ready to be there for her and this drama, like she was there for him and his drama. Can't wait for the next post!!!

On: Aug 11, 2013

While we were talking I was putting the last bit of food in a container. “It’s so wild and curly I don’t know what to do with it.” I add. He sees a few pans that still needed to get rinsed and put in the dish washer, so he starts doing that. I didn’t want him to lift a finger, but he told me he wanted to do it, so I moved aside. My mind got the best of me as I watched Trey. I noticed out of all the talking we had done tonight, he still hadn’t said anything about his feelings on forgiving me. I know he talked about “time” when he made the toast, but I wasn’t sure if that was his way of saying that he understands and he doesn’t want to waste any more time being upset about it. Or, that he was happy that time has been on our side, because he still needs more of it to forgive me. My need to have clarity on this just wouldn’t let me not say anything and wait for him to bring it up, so I asked him the question.
“Trey, after tonight, does this mean that you’ve forgiven me or…,” he sighs.
“Look, about all of that, it’s some things that we need to talk about that’s been on my mind and we’ll get into it, but just not tonight. Is that alright witchu?” Now I really was curious to know what he was thinking, but I respected what he said and agreed. Once he was done we went up to the bedroom and got back in the bed. We both were ready to pick up where we left off. The love making continued throughout the night. This time I slept like a baby right up underneath my baby.


The next morning I got a call from Dre. Woke me right up out of my sleep.
“Morning Shanell. Is Trey there with you?”
“Yeah.” I look over at him still sleeping. I get out of the bed, put my robe on and walk into the bathroom. “Dre what’s wrong? Do you have some news about the case?”
“It’s not about the case, it’s about your daughter.” My first thoughts were of El’s mother.
“What is it?”
“I think you need to have Trey on the phone too.”
“He’s sleep. Look Dre, just tell me. What is it?”
“I’ve been doing some checking up on Ms. Harris. It seems she’s hired a Private Investigator to look into finding out any truth about her having a grandchild.” My body was suddenly shaking from my nerves getting the best of me. My heart started beating so fast, I had to sit down on the edge of the tub. I was abruptly filled with a surge of emotions. I immediately felt the tears begin to settle in the bottom of my eyelids as panic set in.

On: Aug 11, 2013

“Thank you for tonight baby. I know you didn’t make dinner, but it was very good, everything,” he emphasizes. I suddenly couldn’t take the devilish grin that I had off my face as I stared at him. The way he said “everything” just made me want to start the night over again. I decided to keep my response clean.
“Well, I did put the menu together, but I’m sure Mrs. Vanessa will be pleased to hear that it was to your liking. You know she loves making sure you’re well fed, as well as myself,” I add, slyly. “Are you ready for dessert? That I did make.” I stress.
“Oh! We talking bout actual food now?”
I laugh. “Yes!”
“Cause if you was ready for an en`trey I definitely got room for that,” he says, playfully. I couldn’t stop laughing or maybe I didn’t want to. It had been so long since I felt this good. I kiss him and tell him I’ll be right back. I grab four ramekins and drizzle the bottom of them with honey and nuts. Then I took the halved grilled peaches out of the dish that held them all, and put them inside of the smaller individual dishes. I sprinkled a lit bit of sugar on the peaches just to bring out more flavor. Got the cream cheese that was already in a piping bag and nicely decorated them adding a touch of honey and nuts once again on top. They looked and smelled so good. Trey saw them and was ready to dig in. He finished his dessert up in no time. Then he started rubbing on his stomach. I watch him, concerned.
“What’s wrong with you? You finally full now?”
“I think I gotta make a bathroom run.”
“Ill Trey.” I got up from the table on that note, took his plate and mine in the kitchen and started cleaning it up. Trey went to the bathroom. He was gone for some time. When he came back in the kitchen, I noticed he had on a t-shirt and basketball shorts.
“What were you doing?” I curiously ask.
“I went to go see my babies.”
“They weren’t up were they?”
“Nah, they were sleep. Yo, Trejay hair growing just as long as Treyonna’s. I did a double take when I saw ‘em laying there, cause you know even wit that lil night light on it’s still kinda dark in the room.”
“I know,” I reply.

On: Aug 11, 2013

“Aw babe, I love you too.” I cleared my eyes, than got up to kiss him before we clank our glasses. “To time,” I say. Then we drink. I set my glass down once I’m seated, so I could now speak. “Trey that was beautiful. It’s funny that you wanted to toast to time. Up until now, I had my own reservations about it, but baby you’re right. We have had time on our side, in all aspects of the meaning. I just pray that it continues to work for us and not against us.”
“We just gotta remain positive baby.” I don’t know why, but for some reason I was starting to feel sad. Trey saw it. “Aw shit! Why you lookin’ like that?”
“The case. I just really wish this was behind us.”
“It is, especially tonight,” he says emphatically. “Don’t start thinkin’ bout dat shit Shanell. Come on, eat ya food.” I pick up my utensils and eat. He continues to get on me. “You tryna ruin this incredible evening we got going here or something?” I perk up some.
“I’m sorry. No, I don’t want anything to ruin this. I’ve been wanting this for too long Trey. I’ve really missed you.”
“I could tell.” He smiles. “I had you crawling out ya skin earlier in the room.”
I pout. “I was starving for some loving. I missed my beast.”
“Shit, I missed beauty.”
“That, I could tell.” I widely grin. “She was given the royal treatment tonight.”
“I’m not called a prince for nothing.”
Trey had me laughing the whole time while we ate. I really missed this with us. He started telling me about work and how glad he was to be home. He was looking forward to seeing Trejay and Treyonna once he got here he said, but he agreed that tonight was needed. We touched a little on plans for their birthdays, since it falls around the time that Trey will be touring with Usher. Because it’s their first birthday we wanted to do something special, but not too over the top. The twins’ birthday is November 16th. He knew he had to perform that next day in San Diego, so we really only had the 15th & 16th of November to do anything. Thank God he didn’t have any shows to do on their birthday. That was a blessing. We both finished our meals finally from all the conversation. I got up to remove our plates. When I went to pick up Trey’s, he grabs me by the waist. My body just floats right in to him. He looks me in the eyes.

On: Aug 11, 2013

Trey saw how nicely decorated the dining room was. The table setting had two big bouquets of red roses in the middle of it. Our plates had napkins neatly rolled up on them with utensils placed inside. The wine glasses were on the side; Moscato being chilled, looking crisp with beads of water dripping down the bottle. The food definitely was going to need warming. The meat and potatoes were still sitting in the oven and the broccoli florets were on top of the stove in a pan with the lid on it. Trey and I grab our plates, reheat our food and both sit down at the table to enjoy the rest of our evening. He pours us some wine and then wants to make a toast. We hold our glasses. Trey’s whole demeanor changes. He now looks at me straight-faced.
“To time.” When he said that, it kinda caught me off guard for a bit. “Time” to me wasn’t a friend right now, but I was going to hear him out and see why he wanted to toast to it. I continue listening. “Time is a tricky thing man. It’s one of those things that you don’t wanna waste, and time is also something we don’t automatically know how much of it we’ll get, but at the same time it’s something that we all need as human beings. Everything doesn’t happen overnight, it takes time. I’m fortunate that I can say that I love the time that I’ve had with you Shanell. Knowing you…growing with you, to knowing you all over again. I don’t feel like I’ve wasted any of my time, since I’ve met you. And I don’t feel like our relationship could have grown stronger without us giving things time. Through the good times and the bad ones, which may seem like we’ve had the most, can’t touch none of the good times that I’ve shared with you. So, this toast is to time, because it’s been there for us baby, in a lot of different ways. Without it we wouldn’t be existing together today, tryna withstand all the test that’s taken time, and got us here to this present moment…so with that…I love you...I really love you girl.” A wave of relief rushed through my body after hearing Trey’s toast. I was so elated to know that even with everything that’s happened it didn’t change his love for me.

On: Aug 11, 2013

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